Seeking?

Yesterday, I chatted with my fellow classmates(Anthony, Johnson, Li Jin, Mr.X, Charline and 淫姐) after our MIS tutorial.

淫姐 and Charline asked me not to wait for my beloved Princess anymore. They suggested me to find a new one! Are you interested in my reply? I replied them "I'm waiting while seeking". Nonetheless, the problem is, am I seeking?

I know the answer! If you want to know, just investigate it by yourself! How can I seek for a new one? I'm not interested in others! I'm even not accepted by one of my gay friends! He said I'm not the type that he wants! Haha, so mortifying!

I don't know why I'm so weak in this matter! Once I fall in love with someone, I can't forget her, I think, it is for the whole life! It may be due to I'm always serious in this stuff! I usually will consider and observe for a long time before I take action! Thus, this is one of my weaknesses! This was truly highlighted in the case which I fell in love with a girl in my primary school. I could love her even though she didn't know me while I just had little of her details! If you are my blog's follower, you may notice that I could only let her go after I met my Princess! Therefore, it is extremely difficult for me to let go of my beloved one! I hate myself in this matter! This is so-called faithful or stupid?

Blessing

After having my lunch, I met Princess at S.O.T. block. She was sitting on the stone bench waiting for the bus! I approached her just wanted to say hi to her but when our conversation started, I couldn't stop!

She invited me to sit beside her. So I sit beside her instead of standing in front of her! We chatted a lot. From her facial expression, I noticed something but I didn't know what was it? I asked her what was going on but she replied me "nothing"! I told her that if she had problems, she better told me because if she concealed it, I would be rather worried!

At last, she told me that her father is in the hospital now. She said her father is having 肺炎, is this referred to tuberculosis? I assume it to be right! She said her father was discharged from the General Hospital and now he is moving into a private hospital since her father was still not getting well in General Hospital! I told her my experience in General Hospital and asked her that how old is her father now? She said 60. Wow, I had never thought of the age of father would be so far from us! However, it is okay! I know that her father is a smoker. She said her father smokes, drinks and "disobey"! These were the reasons to get tuberculosis! I asked her to stop her father from smoking anymore and taught her that if her father would like to smoke again, or addicted to be more precise, give him a sweet to chew to forget the addiction.

Since she was alone, I chatted with her until she got into the college bus even though my friends were waiting for me to complete the English presentation's slides. Sorry, my friends! For your information, Princess is more important! I didn't know why suddenly I asked her that is she facing financial problem as I'm not rich! My whole property just has RM10000 over, how can I help her? Nevertheless, never mind, I will help with all I can!

Before she left, I asked her to take care and be careful as well as the most important one, that was to call me when she has problems!

After she got into the bus, I started to worry! I'm worried about her father's(actually, I want to call him "father" but before I get the recognition from Princess and her parents, I will just call him "Uncle") health. I will pray for you besides my Princess, Uncle! You have to get well soon so that my Princess is not worried about you! Therefore, for your own good and people who care about you including me, please get well as soon as possible! You know? I'm eager to visit you in the hospital but I'm ceased by a few reasons. Firstly, I don't know where is the hospital. Secondly, what status should I use to visit you? Thirdly, you don't recognise me! Thus, very sorry for can't visit you!

Oh my God, could you please bless my Uncle? Please, I don't intend to command you but this is a MUST!

星座

昨晚，我从报章中读到关于我的星座的东西，所以就把他写出来跟大家分享：

摩羯座，也就是我的星座在“敢爱不敢说的星座男”里竟是排名榜首的！它说：“保守的摩羯男在爱情面前总显现出几分羞涩。别说让他向女生表白，就算让他跟女孩说几句话，他都有可能脸红！他很内向，所以很不擅长表达自己内心的情感，尤其是在自己喜欢的女孩面前更是害羞。对方称赞他几句，恐怕他连看对方的勇气都会失去，说话也会吞吞吐吐。而且摩羯男又爱面子，如果自己的表白遭到对方拒绝，那对他的打击肯定不小。所以，他宁可用逃避和无所谓的态度去面对自己喜欢的人。”

看到了没有？我就是这样的人！我是100%的纯摩羯男！我不是空头说白话的，因为以前，我就是这样羞涩，才致使我到如今还是单身！读了这篇文章后，我发现原来我已经变了！因为，以前的我，根本甭想我去告白，因为我怕失败，一旦失败了就会很没面子！因此，我不懂为何我会向Princess告白的！大概是我吃错药吧！或许，我终于嘹解机会是得自己争取的吧！

虽然我被Princess拒绝了，感觉就像被打入十八层地狱般，但最终，我还是站起来了！我的小学同学都说:"Hey Recca,我不相信blog里的人是你!"。别说你们不信啦，就连我本身都不相信我会这么勇敢去告白，而且还一连告了三次白！哈哈，真讽刺！

No Feel

Just now, I dated my primary school's friend. We went to watch "Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince" at GSC, Gurney.

Before that, some of my friends wished me good luck and looked forward to calling her "Ah Sou". Haha, unfortunately, I couldn't make it, sorry for disappointing you! I had tried before but I truly couldn't make it!

When we were in the cinema, I was still thinking and missing my Princess! I wondered how beautiful the scene would be if the one sitting beside me was my beloved Princess! I know that she is having a boyfriend right now but I still love her! However, I will love her in a wisely manner now.

I was not happy on the ending since Professor Dumbledore died in the end of the show! He was killed by Snape whom he was strongly believing and relying on! After the movie, we went for dinner and during that time, she was inviting her friends to join our dinner! Fine, it was okay to me. After the dinner, we walked around and I met Si En. I thought, she would misunderstand something!

I had no other feelings throughout the night. I know that I still fall in love with Princess! Is the God playing a fool with me?

Endless

Today, I went to Redbox with my friends after the lecture. This was my third time been there. It was quite fun over there and this was also the first time which I sang the most! I still remembered that last two Friday, I suddenly asked Anthony to call Li Xian out to Redbox on our way to jetty as we passed through PTPL College. Then, Princess asked me that whether I know how to sing? I replied, "If I am good in singing, I has joint the Malaysian Singing Talent Competition already. Being a singer is better than being an accountant!" She smiled.

I have never failed to miss my Princess whenever I was in Redbox. There was no exception for this time! I also didn't know why I would miss my Princess over there. It might be due to the lyrics. I missed her again but just for a short while, about 1 minute!

Why I will miss her? I just know that I want to listen to her voice and even see her right now! However, I can't make it! I miss her so much now! I will keep reminding myself and telling myself that Princess has a boyfriend whom she loves so much already, please stop missing her again! I really do it but it seems like it doesn't work right now!

I know that I still love her, I even love her more than loving myself! She is the most important to me and I am willing to do anything for her! There was a time that I successfully concealed my love towards her and I truly felt nothing about her stuffs. It just liked I concealed it in a crystal ball. Nonetheless, the crystal ball seems to have leakage and my feeling and love towards my Princess gradually come out without pausing to a halt!

I almost watch “溏心风暴” everyday. I found that Princess and I look alike with 常在心 and 得得地. She forgives her boyfriend again and again, loves him wholeheartedly and treating him as her most important whereas I am the one who sacrifice, upset and contribute secretly. However, the relationship between them is better than ours. At least, she will remember him in time of trouble!

I don't bother that what am I feeling! I just care about my Princess's feeling! I will satisfy and relief as long as Princess meets the three requirements-- 平安，幸福，快乐.

So Bad

It was so bad. I received my Management Accounting Fundamental's test paper this afternoon. I was shocked that I just managed to get 35 marks out of 50! "Incredible"! What was ridiculous was, I scored full marks for subjective questions but I had 6 wrongs in objective questions!

It might be I overlooked the paper or overestimated my capacity or I am blurred in this subject! I admit that I was negligent in doing some of the questions. Nonetheless, 2.5 marks for each objective question had killed me! No choice, I have to start from zero. There is no time to be wasted as the final exam is approaching! May God bless me? I hope so...

Durian

As usual, I visited my grandpa today. As usual again, he urged me to eat his durians again! Haiz... No choice, I had to follow as well since he would take some durians for me and open them even though I had indicate my refusal or asked him not to take them to me. I didn't mean to hurt him but this few years, I had no the "passion" to eat durians. In fact, I didn't dislike to eat as well. Just... I also don't know how to explain, just no mood to enjoy!

Grandpa told me that he started to eat his durians since last week. Actually, he could enjoy his durians long time ago but he was scared that eating durians would "burden" his disgestive system which would further affect his health! That was one of the reasons why I always follow his instruction to eat his durians. I just eat on behalf of him! Haha... This is because he enjoy seeing me eating his durians! Yep, this is real! If I praise his self-plant durians or eat with satisfactory, he will be happy!

It is okay, no matter how many durians you bring to me, I will consume them as long as they are delicious!

Shock

This afternoon, I received an sms from Princess after having my lunch. She asked me that whether I was free? She was at jetty and couldn't find a bus to college! I decided to fetch Princess even though I was having a lecture class.

Before I started my car's engine, I called my Princess. She said she was in a bus already but she didn't know where would the bus head! Oh my God! So brave! She said it might stop at Gurney so I decided to wait her at Gurney Plaza.

When I arrived at Gurney Plaza's bus stop, I called her again. She said the bus would stop at KOMTAR, so I asked her to wait me at KOMTAR. I headed to KOMTAR as fast as possible. The road was jammed like shit! When I arrived at KOMTAR, it was already two o'clock but Princess would be having a class at 2:30p.m.. She said that she would wait for me in front of Maybank. When I arrived, I called her. I saw her eating a cup of ice-cream and she seemed didn't know that I had arrived. I waived my hand and she found me. Finally, she got into my car!

We chatted a lot of things on the way to college. I knew that she was still not recovered and not having her lunch yet. So, I offered to have lunch with her. She rejected as she didn't want to delay my time for class. Besides, I blamed that she shoudn't get back and come to Penang singlehandedly as this is very dangerous but she told me that she used to be the black tie in tae-kwan-do. When we almost arrived at her hostel, I said I would like to buy her medicine at Guardian. She rejected and kept saying that she had medicine in her house. Then I offered to have lunch with her and she agreed. We were eating Asam Laksa at Chew City Cafe at 2:30p.m.. She managed to eat a big bowl of Asam Laksa while I just ate a small bowl one as I had already had my lunch. After finishing our Asam Laksa, she wanted to pay for me but I blocked her way and paid to the "tauke". Luckily, the "tauke" took the RM50 note from me. A guy behind us smiled when seeing I kept blocking Princess's hand to pay.

Then, I fetched her back to college and she changed her shirt into a black one. I teased her that she wanted to have couple wear with me! When we arrived at college, it was already 3 o'clock! She was late. I followed her to her class and went to my class after ensuring that she had entered into her class.

My MIS tutorial ended one hour earlier and thus, I could fetch my Princess and her cousin to jetty earlier. When I arrived at her hostel, I called her. She got down after 5 minutes. We chatted a lot along the way to jetty and I knew her cousin's name is Chee Weng or Chin Weng. When we reached at jetty, I asked her to take good care of herself and be careful all the way!

I know that my feeling will gradually come back and I believed that there will be a sad time again. However, it is okay la! As a friend, I should help her. As a servant of my Princess, I must help her!In fact, I am happy that I could help her. I am also delighted that Princess found me in time of trouble even if I was not the first one whom she called for help!

Anniversary

Yoyo, today is the first anniversary for my blog, which means that my blog has been one year old! During this first year, thanks everybody for reading my blog and leaving comments.

Nonetheless, I would like to apologize for not updating my blog frequently. I promise that I will write a new post whenever I have an idea or incident happening. I also believe that some of my readers might feel bored for reading Princess's story. Haha, I think Princess's story won't appear in my blog so frequently anymore unless "something" happens! If you are my follower, you will notice that I will use pink text colour for Princess's story, and others just according to my mood during that time.

Hehe, so now is the first anniversary, and I believe that there are many many more anniversaries to come. Let's look forward to it!

Are You Okay?

Just now, I online. What shocked me immediately was I saw my Princess's personal message. She wrote "i'm SICK!!!!!". I couldn't stop myself, I clicked to chat with her at once even if she stated herself as away! I was so worried about her! My blood pressure went up and my palms became cold!

After 5 minutes, she replied me. She said that she is sick but she didn't consult a doctor. She just ate some medicines. She said that her disease is not so serious. Then, I asked her to take good care of herself. After a while, she said that she had bad mood and almost cried.

This worried me even more. She told me that she had some bad news relating to herself. I asked her to share with me as I am a good listener. Furthermore, she is my Princess, I need to help her out of trouble! However, she didn't tell me what was happening, she just said that she would tell me next time since she was not sure about the accuracy of the bad news yet! I could do nothing, I just asked her to cheer up and I told her that I just want her to be happy. I reminded her again that she can share whatever things with me. She kept thanking for my concern. Actually, you don't have to thank me since you are my Princess!

Nevertheless, what happened to her now? I started to worry! In fact, her silence even worries me more! Is the news related to her boyfriend, her disease or others? No matter what kind of bad news is, I am always be there to face it or even overcome it with you, Princess. You are not alone!