今天在college看了Princess的time table后，就有一股莫名的坏感觉！
在回家的途中，我sms给Princess。我问她有没有来college，几时回，这个学期拿几科。。。最后，我知道她今天就会乘坐学院巴士回家。我毛遂自荐要载她，顺便把"The Day"要做的事办完！很不幸的，我被拒绝了。她说她不想麻烦我，而且她已上了巴士。
可是，这则拒绝的简讯来得很晚。我怀疑她是故意的，因为她要避我！是我做错了什么吗？"The Day"会是我对你的告别式，连这么简单的要求你也不能满足我吗？在这段假期期间，我一共送了两盒“月饼”给你，但我却连一盒“月饼”都未曾从你哪儿获得！就连一封短讯都没有收到！实在是很心淡！你到底发生了什么事？为什么你的态度会180度转变？
一直以来，我都认为纵使你现在不属于我的，但有朝一日，你一定会属于我的，我一直认为目前的状况只是暂时性罢了！不过，这种感觉已经在我心里渐渐地淡化了！虽然我想维持下去，但我无能为力！为什么对于你，我老是力不从心！在你面前，一向大男人的我总是显得十分懦弱！对于你的事情，我总是得得到你的permission后方能去实践！为什么主动权一直不在我这儿呢？是我过分尊重你吗？
其实，你的拒绝并没有达到你的意愿！你老是说不想麻烦我，可是你知道吗？我不曾觉得这是麻烦！试想想，倘若我觉得麻烦的话，我还会offer你吗？就算你不想我继续对你纠缠不清或有所误会，也不必婉拒我的！你没有权利控制我对你的感觉！扪心自问，我在你面前一直以来都规规矩矩的，我并未曾在你面前令你难堪，放肆过！因为我不想你不开心！即使我有多不舍或心酸，我都一力承担，丝毫不敢在你面前透露半句！为什么我要这么做？不是因为我扮伟大，而是我在意你的一切！任何伤害你的事情，我都不愿意做，情愿自己一个人抵！我这么做，还不够吗？你有必要这么绝吗？
每个人都有他自己的价值。但是，我丝毫感觉不到我在你心目中的价值！我答应你，等到"The Day"谢幕之后，我会自动在你面前消失！我不会再发简讯给你，顶多是forwarded message。可是，你可以答应我吗？要活得自在，还有不要当我透明，即使只是hi-bye friend也okay。
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Wednesday, 30 September 2009
败给妳
Princess,我不是输你的boyfriend而是败给你！
在这个学期期假期间，老实说，我是有想你的，不过这种感觉并没有像以前般浓厚！这是不是证明了我已放下了，我已痊愈了呢？虽然离期假的最后一天还有几天的时间，但so far我还没有收到你的一封简讯或一通电话！其实，我是很失望的！你知道吗？在这段时间里，我的身边发生了很多事情，我很想与你分享，但我知道，我不可以这么做，免得节外生枝！可是，这并不意味着你不可以联络我啊！你真狠心，很残忍。即使是一则forwarded message也可以令我开心及安心！
你知道收不到你的消息是多么的恐怖吗？我老觉得你有问题，在加上每日星座书里的描述，更令我着急万分！偏偏，我又得不到你的消息。我又能如何呢？惟有假扮若无其事咯！我得不断地游说自己说你现在很安全，很开心！
我真是败给了你的执著！想不到你会比我更“硬颈”！我输给你的坚持！我输给你的固执！如今惟有一如往常般的，每晚睡前都祝福你！我要上天保佑你“健康，幸福，快乐”！看来，我也是时候把应送你的礼物给包扎起来了。原本，我是想说，如果你在这段期间分手的话，我就能把我为你而写的歌词连同那份礼物给包扎起来。以现在的情况看来，已经不需要了！因为，我相信你们的感情会随着时光的飞逝而更深厚！
很多人都问我，既然Princess都不喜欢我，为什么我还要送礼物给她？理由很简单，即使她不爱我或暂时不爱我，我还是得履行我的承诺！虽说Princess不曾说过要我的礼物，可能她根本就不稀罕吧，但这是我在老早前于心里所对她许下的诺言！我必须做到，就当作是跟她的道别吧！因此，我会在这几天里把礼物包好。
Princess,我真是败给妳！
在这个学期期假期间，老实说，我是有想你的，不过这种感觉并没有像以前般浓厚！这是不是证明了我已放下了，我已痊愈了呢？虽然离期假的最后一天还有几天的时间，但so far我还没有收到你的一封简讯或一通电话！其实，我是很失望的！你知道吗？在这段时间里，我的身边发生了很多事情，我很想与你分享，但我知道，我不可以这么做，免得节外生枝！可是，这并不意味着你不可以联络我啊！你真狠心，很残忍。即使是一则forwarded message也可以令我开心及安心！
你知道收不到你的消息是多么的恐怖吗？我老觉得你有问题，在加上每日星座书里的描述，更令我着急万分！偏偏，我又得不到你的消息。我又能如何呢？惟有假扮若无其事咯！我得不断地游说自己说你现在很安全，很开心！
我真是败给了你的执著！想不到你会比我更“硬颈”！我输给你的坚持！我输给你的固执！如今惟有一如往常般的，每晚睡前都祝福你！我要上天保佑你“健康，幸福，快乐”！看来，我也是时候把应送你的礼物给包扎起来了。原本，我是想说，如果你在这段期间分手的话，我就能把我为你而写的歌词连同那份礼物给包扎起来。以现在的情况看来，已经不需要了！因为，我相信你们的感情会随着时光的飞逝而更深厚！
很多人都问我，既然Princess都不喜欢我，为什么我还要送礼物给她？理由很简单，即使她不爱我或暂时不爱我，我还是得履行我的承诺！虽说Princess不曾说过要我的礼物，可能她根本就不稀罕吧，但这是我在老早前于心里所对她许下的诺言！我必须做到，就当作是跟她的道别吧！因此，我会在这几天里把礼物包好。
Princess,我真是败给妳！
Monday, 28 September 2009
Approaching
"The Day" is approaching! The nearer "The Day" it is, the more reluctant I am!
I know you are curious about what is "The Day". It will be someday within the coming fortnight! I will tell you later, so now just keep it as mystery.
I know you are curious about what is "The Day". It will be someday within the coming fortnight! I will tell you later, so now just keep it as mystery.
Wednesday, 23 September 2009
Sit Straight
Yup, we need to sit straight, otherwise you will regret like me!
Today, when I arrived at my house after playing badminton, I took up my guts to look at my back through a mirror. Oh my God, I eventually found out the reason why I became shorter. It's my spinal cord!
I like to sit in a "lying L" manner albeit I know the serious consequences. However, I will only feel comfortable by sitting in this way. I used to convince myself that I had to change my way of sitting but this couldn't last long. It just lasted about 2 minutes, then I would sit in "lying L".
My "disperseverance" now teaches me a lesson. I have a "S" shape spinal cord now! SHIT!!! No wonder nowadays I became shorter! Arr... What should I do now? How can I have my normal spinal cord back? Who can tell me? Haiz...
Today, when I arrived at my house after playing badminton, I took up my guts to look at my back through a mirror. Oh my God, I eventually found out the reason why I became shorter. It's my spinal cord!
I like to sit in a "lying L" manner albeit I know the serious consequences. However, I will only feel comfortable by sitting in this way. I used to convince myself that I had to change my way of sitting but this couldn't last long. It just lasted about 2 minutes, then I would sit in "lying L".
My "disperseverance" now teaches me a lesson. I have a "S" shape spinal cord now! SHIT!!! No wonder nowadays I became shorter! Arr... What should I do now? How can I have my normal spinal cord back? Who can tell me? Haiz...
Tuesday, 22 September 2009
一路走好
昨天下午大概五点多，我的叔婆就“走”了！她于上周六就中风入院了，没想到，她昨天就与世长辞了。
叔婆是我最尊敬的老人家之一，因此她的离开也让我感到十分痛苦！这则消息来得实在是太突然了，我在毫无防备之际，得知这则消息后，就觉得十分地无助！
想不到，我最后一次见到叔婆竟然是这个新年！当时她还好好的，只是视力不佳而已。万万都没想到如今她竟然“走”了。叔婆，应该算是我的远房亲戚，我也不知怎么的，我总觉得我跟她很投缘。纵使跟她不熟，但我总是很期待能够去见她，很想跟她在一块儿，因此我总是很期待去她家拜年的那一天。现在，一切都没有了！
叔婆，你就一路走好吧！我会牢牢地记住你那慈祥的脸孔以及你说过的话！
叔婆是我最尊敬的老人家之一，因此她的离开也让我感到十分痛苦！这则消息来得实在是太突然了，我在毫无防备之际，得知这则消息后，就觉得十分地无助！
想不到，我最后一次见到叔婆竟然是这个新年！当时她还好好的，只是视力不佳而已。万万都没想到如今她竟然“走”了。叔婆，应该算是我的远房亲戚，我也不知怎么的，我总觉得我跟她很投缘。纵使跟她不熟，但我总是很期待能够去见她，很想跟她在一块儿，因此我总是很期待去她家拜年的那一天。现在，一切都没有了！
叔婆，你就一路走好吧！我会牢牢地记住你那慈祥的脸孔以及你说过的话！
Friday, 18 September 2009
Ninja Saves Princess
Yo, today is the last day for my Year 2 Sem 1 exam! However, this paper worried me a lot since I was not so confident to score this subject-- Management Accounting Fundamentals! I am scared that I can't score an A for this subject! If I fail to make it, my CGPA will drop agan! Thereupon, this sem, I have to at least maintain my CGPA as next semester will be the toughest semester for Diploma courses!
After the exam finished, I met Ms. Theresa. I teased her by inviting her to watch movie at GSC. However, she didn't reject me but tell me that she was busy and just would be available after 4:40p.m.. Haha, I was not in college already during that time. At least, I know that she considers me as her friend since last time, when I invited her, she would say she was busy!
When we were ready to go to Red Box, my handphone rang. Princess sms me! She was not afford to wait for bus! I immediately called my friend and asked her that what time did she book for the room? Luckily she answered me 1:00p.m., that meant I had time to fetch my Princess since it was just 11:45a.m.. I left Anthony and Penny opposite the Gurney Plaza and headed to jetty to "save" my Princess!
Princess waited me at the jetty's bus stop. When I fetched her, it had been 12:10p.m.. I invited her for lunch but she said she didn't want if I didn't let her treat me! Haha, she didn't accept even though I had explaint to her that I had money since I had part-time job and negotiated with her to treat me once for every three times I treat her! Her refusal made me felt that she didn't want to owe me much and didn't treat me as her family member! Yes, she was right, I had no right to be her family member!
She said initially she wanted to treat me Mc'Donald but she also knew that I would pay for her so she just asked me to eat at road side's stalls. So, we went to the road side of 白云山路. I had been having my lunch over there and knew one special term. The "Koay Tiaw" soup uncle calls bowl as "love". Haha, very funny, right?
Before we arrived, we chatted a lot. I asked her that when she wants to take for car test and she said she will take during holidays. Well, but she will be going to Kedah, her boyfriend's hometown during semester break. She told me that she maybe will not be there already. She said she just went to Genting Highland with her boyfriend and her best friend, Ze铭 on 31 August. She told me that her boyfriend was scared to play roller coaster too! I answered her that her boyfriend might be scared of accident, then he would not be able to be with her anymore. She laughed and said she was a girl and dared to try then why not boy!
She cheated me by asking me that did I want to eat Hokkien Mee? For your information, I am a very linear people until others will feel that I don't have my own opinion（主见）. Actually I just want to make your life easier, that's why I always try my best to cope with you. She paid at once after placing the order. No wonder the stall's uncle smiled while looking at me!
When the uncle served us, I asked him why didn't take the money from me instead of taking from my Princess. He smiled and said next time. Okay, I assumed you promised me already! Princess told me that the uncle asked her to eat first, then only pay him but my Princess insisted! He asked my Princess why she didn't want to let me treat! Haha...
She treated me for drinks as well! Arr... why? Why didn't want me to treat you? Suddenly, her handphone rang. After she finished her call, she asked that whether I knew who was the one who called her? I said "no" since I didn't pay attention in her conversion as this is very immoral but I saw her smiled. Then I said it was from her boyfriend! She said she must answer his call. One time, she was hanging out with her friends in a shopping complex, the battery of my Princess's cell phone almost used up and his boyfriend called her during that time. Due to this reason, she didn't answer the call. Her boyfriend kept calling her and at last, she said that her battery was running out and shut the phone. Nevertheless, her boyfriend called again. She used her friend's phone to call him and explain everything to him but her boyfriend insisted to know where she was and go to the complex to fetch her! Her boyfriend is a very anxious people, he is scared of losing my Princess. But on the other side, I feel that he is not confident in himself! When he arrived, he wanted to beat my Princess's friends. My Princess said she had never seen her boyfriend acted like this. She was worried so she asked her boyfriend to send her home immediately. He warned my Princess not to hang out with the friends again.
Nonetheless, there are also some remarkable points such as he is willing to change for my Princess now. He will try to cope with my Princess and not to hurt my Princess again. My Princess also showed me the card which his boyfriend made for her after she had been asking for many times. Even though it was not beautiful but I think I can't make it as well due to my poor art! Actually, my heart was pain when I saw the card but I had to pretend nothing happened!
I also knew that her boyfriend is quite "competent". Although his hometown is Kedah but he is working at his father's shop at Bukit Mertajam. My Princess told me that, her boyfriend will call her to his shop when he is boring. However, when my Princess arrived, he was playing computer games and acted like she had never come. My Princess was angry and quarreled with him after this happened many times. Yes, if you want to play computer games, just go ahead. Don't call my Princess to accompany you if you don't want to bother her!
Then, I asked my Princess to take her study seriously next year and try to make new friends next year since I will be departing to Setapak to pursue my Advanced Diploma in the coming May. Therefore, I will not be able to help her anymore but I asked her to call me as well if she has problems. I will try my best to help her! Before she went, I wished her good luck in her exam!
After the exam finished, I met Ms. Theresa. I teased her by inviting her to watch movie at GSC. However, she didn't reject me but tell me that she was busy and just would be available after 4:40p.m.. Haha, I was not in college already during that time. At least, I know that she considers me as her friend since last time, when I invited her, she would say she was busy!
When we were ready to go to Red Box, my handphone rang. Princess sms me! She was not afford to wait for bus! I immediately called my friend and asked her that what time did she book for the room? Luckily she answered me 1:00p.m., that meant I had time to fetch my Princess since it was just 11:45a.m.. I left Anthony and Penny opposite the Gurney Plaza and headed to jetty to "save" my Princess!
Princess waited me at the jetty's bus stop. When I fetched her, it had been 12:10p.m.. I invited her for lunch but she said she didn't want if I didn't let her treat me! Haha, she didn't accept even though I had explaint to her that I had money since I had part-time job and negotiated with her to treat me once for every three times I treat her! Her refusal made me felt that she didn't want to owe me much and didn't treat me as her family member! Yes, she was right, I had no right to be her family member!
She said initially she wanted to treat me Mc'Donald but she also knew that I would pay for her so she just asked me to eat at road side's stalls. So, we went to the road side of 白云山路. I had been having my lunch over there and knew one special term. The "Koay Tiaw" soup uncle calls bowl as "love". Haha, very funny, right?
Before we arrived, we chatted a lot. I asked her that when she wants to take for car test and she said she will take during holidays. Well, but she will be going to Kedah, her boyfriend's hometown during semester break. She told me that she maybe will not be there already. She said she just went to Genting Highland with her boyfriend and her best friend, Ze铭 on 31 August. She told me that her boyfriend was scared to play roller coaster too! I answered her that her boyfriend might be scared of accident, then he would not be able to be with her anymore. She laughed and said she was a girl and dared to try then why not boy!
She cheated me by asking me that did I want to eat Hokkien Mee? For your information, I am a very linear people until others will feel that I don't have my own opinion（主见）. Actually I just want to make your life easier, that's why I always try my best to cope with you. She paid at once after placing the order. No wonder the stall's uncle smiled while looking at me!
When the uncle served us, I asked him why didn't take the money from me instead of taking from my Princess. He smiled and said next time. Okay, I assumed you promised me already! Princess told me that the uncle asked her to eat first, then only pay him but my Princess insisted! He asked my Princess why she didn't want to let me treat! Haha...
She treated me for drinks as well! Arr... why? Why didn't want me to treat you? Suddenly, her handphone rang. After she finished her call, she asked that whether I knew who was the one who called her? I said "no" since I didn't pay attention in her conversion as this is very immoral but I saw her smiled. Then I said it was from her boyfriend! She said she must answer his call. One time, she was hanging out with her friends in a shopping complex, the battery of my Princess's cell phone almost used up and his boyfriend called her during that time. Due to this reason, she didn't answer the call. Her boyfriend kept calling her and at last, she said that her battery was running out and shut the phone. Nevertheless, her boyfriend called again. She used her friend's phone to call him and explain everything to him but her boyfriend insisted to know where she was and go to the complex to fetch her! Her boyfriend is a very anxious people, he is scared of losing my Princess. But on the other side, I feel that he is not confident in himself! When he arrived, he wanted to beat my Princess's friends. My Princess said she had never seen her boyfriend acted like this. She was worried so she asked her boyfriend to send her home immediately. He warned my Princess not to hang out with the friends again.
Nonetheless, there are also some remarkable points such as he is willing to change for my Princess now. He will try to cope with my Princess and not to hurt my Princess again. My Princess also showed me the card which his boyfriend made for her after she had been asking for many times. Even though it was not beautiful but I think I can't make it as well due to my poor art! Actually, my heart was pain when I saw the card but I had to pretend nothing happened!
I also knew that her boyfriend is quite "competent". Although his hometown is Kedah but he is working at his father's shop at Bukit Mertajam. My Princess told me that, her boyfriend will call her to his shop when he is boring. However, when my Princess arrived, he was playing computer games and acted like she had never come. My Princess was angry and quarreled with him after this happened many times. Yes, if you want to play computer games, just go ahead. Don't call my Princess to accompany you if you don't want to bother her!
Then, I asked my Princess to take her study seriously next year and try to make new friends next year since I will be departing to Setapak to pursue my Advanced Diploma in the coming May. Therefore, I will not be able to help her anymore but I asked her to call me as well if she has problems. I will try my best to help her! Before she went, I wished her good luck in her exam!
Sunday, 6 September 2009
大声家族
我来自“大声家族”！何谓“大声家族”？那就是讲话大声！
我的家人，除了我的大妹和妈咪例外，其余的都是大声公及大声婆！尤其是我的阿嘛，阿伯和我的老豆！最令我顶不顺的就是我老豆！他讲话一向来都很大声！即使我要求他放低声量，也要跟我用喊的不相上下！你们可以想想看有多大声！
我就在这样的环境下成长，因此我的声量也不小，只是斗不过他们罢了，但比起我身边的朋友也都还要大！我并不是蔑视讲话大声的人，也不是觉得他们粗鲁，同时我也明白家丑不可外扬的道理，但我真是忍无可忍了！
平常跟他们出街时讲话大声已觉得很丢脸了，现在可是我的关键时期呢！他们还在我温习时提高声量，真是太岁头上动土！我觉得他们很不文明！简直就是破坏了家在我心目中的形象！我很生气，因为他们明知故犯！明知我在温习的嘛，至少我有特意地在你们面前拿书晃来晃去，为何你们不能为了我放低声量甚至避免交谈呢？为什么要尽情地讲直至我在房间里还能听得一清二楚呢？
从前，我曾对他们说过，他们也有迁就我一下，但只维持了15分钟“甘大把”！这次，我不跟他们讲了！我觉得只要他们有心或通情达理的话，我根本就不必一讲再讲！你们长大了嘛，整天被我骂，你们不会“见笑”吗？而且，我骂你们，你们又会倒过头来骂我无礼，假扮文明，自以为我比你们多读几年书就扮高贵！好！既然你们要这么地为你们辩解，那我就认咯！
要我考好成绩的是你们！要我维持着奖学金的也是你们！不给我安宁的偏偏又是你们！到底你们想我怎样？给我个答案啊！拜托啦！加起来都百多岁了，麻烦你们成熟一点！给我一点空间好吗？我没有考试时，你们要讲多大声，随便你们！但，不要到我的生死关头时，也来这招好吗？
你们以为我考试很简单吗？你们以为我很聪明吗？不要被我小学和中学时的政府考试成绩所误导，以为我很厉害！你们以为我考取的好成绩像放屁一样容易吗？拜托啦！就连放屁也要找地方放啦，更何况是考试！可能你们可以当着大众面前放屁，但很抱歉，我是一个很爱面子的人，我办不到！
你们的财政状况我很清楚，所以请不要拿我的奖学金来“交飞”！不要老是说倘若有财政困难的话，你们会拿家的房契去押给银行以换取金钱来供我读书！情愿辛苦地再供多一次房屋贷款，也要我继续读书！不要说得这么伟大啦！我根本就不需要，我只要你们跟我合作！就这么简单！
有鉴于此，一向恋家的我其实很想逃离这个所谓的“家”！因为，这并不是一个可以给我安宁的家，这并不是我梦寐的家！不想以后见不到我或失去我这个儿子的话，请“醒目D”
我的家人，除了我的大妹和妈咪例外，其余的都是大声公及大声婆！尤其是我的阿嘛，阿伯和我的老豆！最令我顶不顺的就是我老豆！他讲话一向来都很大声！即使我要求他放低声量，也要跟我用喊的不相上下！你们可以想想看有多大声！
我就在这样的环境下成长，因此我的声量也不小，只是斗不过他们罢了，但比起我身边的朋友也都还要大！我并不是蔑视讲话大声的人，也不是觉得他们粗鲁，同时我也明白家丑不可外扬的道理，但我真是忍无可忍了！
平常跟他们出街时讲话大声已觉得很丢脸了，现在可是我的关键时期呢！他们还在我温习时提高声量，真是太岁头上动土！我觉得他们很不文明！简直就是破坏了家在我心目中的形象！我很生气，因为他们明知故犯！明知我在温习的嘛，至少我有特意地在你们面前拿书晃来晃去，为何你们不能为了我放低声量甚至避免交谈呢？为什么要尽情地讲直至我在房间里还能听得一清二楚呢？
从前，我曾对他们说过，他们也有迁就我一下，但只维持了15分钟“甘大把”！这次，我不跟他们讲了！我觉得只要他们有心或通情达理的话，我根本就不必一讲再讲！你们长大了嘛，整天被我骂，你们不会“见笑”吗？而且，我骂你们，你们又会倒过头来骂我无礼，假扮文明，自以为我比你们多读几年书就扮高贵！好！既然你们要这么地为你们辩解，那我就认咯！
要我考好成绩的是你们！要我维持着奖学金的也是你们！不给我安宁的偏偏又是你们！到底你们想我怎样？给我个答案啊！拜托啦！加起来都百多岁了，麻烦你们成熟一点！给我一点空间好吗？我没有考试时，你们要讲多大声，随便你们！但，不要到我的生死关头时，也来这招好吗？
你们以为我考试很简单吗？你们以为我很聪明吗？不要被我小学和中学时的政府考试成绩所误导，以为我很厉害！你们以为我考取的好成绩像放屁一样容易吗？拜托啦！就连放屁也要找地方放啦，更何况是考试！可能你们可以当着大众面前放屁，但很抱歉，我是一个很爱面子的人，我办不到！
你们的财政状况我很清楚，所以请不要拿我的奖学金来“交飞”！不要老是说倘若有财政困难的话，你们会拿家的房契去押给银行以换取金钱来供我读书！情愿辛苦地再供多一次房屋贷款，也要我继续读书！不要说得这么伟大啦！我根本就不需要，我只要你们跟我合作！就这么简单！
有鉴于此，一向恋家的我其实很想逃离这个所谓的“家”！因为，这并不是一个可以给我安宁的家，这并不是我梦寐的家！不想以后见不到我或失去我这个儿子的话，请“醒目D”
Friday, 4 September 2009
对不起
昨晚，阿嫲拿了一堆文件给我，要我把阿公打枪埔的屋契找出来。我在寻找的过程中，发现了一封阿公写给我们的信，好像是遗书似的！
我阅读了那封信后，感到很惭愧！我觉得我很对不起我的阿公！原来，他对我们的期望是如此之高的！他的文法很好，甚至好过我。他要我们通晓三大语文，即华语，英语及马来文。同时，他还希望我们精通电脑。他认为，只有很好地掌握这几样，才能出人头地，在这个社会上有立足之地！
一直以来，我都很讨厌他！因为他的行为令我很反感！我还记得有一次，我叫他在我补完英文后到学校来载我。因为性格内向的我，不想跟陌生人在一块儿，所以我不要搭巴士，走路回又嫌路程太远！怎知，他因为校卫阻止他进入学校范围就打道回府，连支会我一声都没有。从那起，我就异常地不爽他，每次都对他大呼大叫的！
现在回想起来，我也蛮小心眼的，毕竟这件事也已发生三年了！真是兔崽子！我怎么可以这样呢？毕竟他是我的长辈！而且，在更早以前，他也是逢电必到啊！我记得，在我刚搬来宝石花园时，阿公几乎每个星期都会带我们孙子们去游泳。我们就忘我地玩水，而他就坐在一旁看我们玩！现在想起，不知他当时会不会寂寞？
如今，阿公老了，记忆力衰退了，好像得了老人痴呆症似的！我现在又能怎么帮他呢？
我阅读了那封信后，感到很惭愧！我觉得我很对不起我的阿公！原来，他对我们的期望是如此之高的！他的文法很好，甚至好过我。他要我们通晓三大语文，即华语，英语及马来文。同时，他还希望我们精通电脑。他认为，只有很好地掌握这几样，才能出人头地，在这个社会上有立足之地！
一直以来，我都很讨厌他！因为他的行为令我很反感！我还记得有一次，我叫他在我补完英文后到学校来载我。因为性格内向的我，不想跟陌生人在一块儿，所以我不要搭巴士，走路回又嫌路程太远！怎知，他因为校卫阻止他进入学校范围就打道回府，连支会我一声都没有。从那起，我就异常地不爽他，每次都对他大呼大叫的！
现在回想起来，我也蛮小心眼的，毕竟这件事也已发生三年了！真是兔崽子！我怎么可以这样呢？毕竟他是我的长辈！而且，在更早以前，他也是逢电必到啊！我记得，在我刚搬来宝石花园时，阿公几乎每个星期都会带我们孙子们去游泳。我们就忘我地玩水，而他就坐在一旁看我们玩！现在想起，不知他当时会不会寂寞？
如今，阿公老了，记忆力衰退了，好像得了老人痴呆症似的！我现在又能怎么帮他呢？
Tuesday, 1 September 2009
Again
Just now, I on my Friendster account. I accidentally clicked to open the account of my Princess's boyfriend. Okay, now I know that he is 22 years old, no wonder Princess told me that he is working. He is from Kedah!
I clicked to view his picture. I noticed that Princess is totally different when she is with him. Her smile is so attractive and “放”, unlike the one with me. This is what I lose to her boyfriend! He can make my Princess happy but he is also the one who hurts my Princess the most! I hate him!
I didn't know why, I felt helpless and breathless when I viewed the pictures! My Princess is so beautiful and sweet in the pictures! Maybe I jealous or envy him! Then I viewed his public picture. What made me so angry was he still put his ex-girlfriend's pictures. I didn't mean that he couldn't do that but please don't put those hugging ones! This would hurt my Princess!
Again, I felt energyless! I was re-falling in love with my Princess again before I saw those pictures! I felt that the difference or distance between my Princess and me was narrowed recently but I can do nothing after seeing those pictures. Maybe I was too childish!
I don't hope that there is a hole in front of my Princess! What do I mean the hole? Interested? Okay, I tell you now. One day, I told Anthony that I was not so 看好 the relationship between my Princess and her boyfriend since I knew that he would lie her or hurt her! I told him that I know there is a hole in front of my Princess and Princess has two choices. One is keep going and fall into the hole and the other one is stop from there and move backwards! What I look for is the latter one.
Since I am not Princess, I can't make the choice for her. In fact, if I have the capacity to do so, I won't do that as well! This is because I'm too loving her! I don't want her regret later! Thereupon, I give her freedom to make her own choice. What can I do? I think many of you may think that I will pull her back when she is going to fall into the hole! No, I won't but this doesn't mean that I won't bother her anymore or let her be hurt! No, this is not what I want and what I wish to do! What I can do is, jump into the hole and be with her in case she is falling into the hole!
Right now, I really can do nothing. This Saturday will be the first day of my exam, I hope that I can get 4 flat this time as I get A's in my coursework for all the subjects but I also know that it is not easy! However, I am having bad mood now! Can I continue my revision in this mood? Last time I couldn't but I think I can handle it now!
I clicked to view his picture. I noticed that Princess is totally different when she is with him. Her smile is so attractive and “放”, unlike the one with me. This is what I lose to her boyfriend! He can make my Princess happy but he is also the one who hurts my Princess the most! I hate him!
I didn't know why, I felt helpless and breathless when I viewed the pictures! My Princess is so beautiful and sweet in the pictures! Maybe I jealous or envy him! Then I viewed his public picture. What made me so angry was he still put his ex-girlfriend's pictures. I didn't mean that he couldn't do that but please don't put those hugging ones! This would hurt my Princess!
Again, I felt energyless! I was re-falling in love with my Princess again before I saw those pictures! I felt that the difference or distance between my Princess and me was narrowed recently but I can do nothing after seeing those pictures. Maybe I was too childish!
I don't hope that there is a hole in front of my Princess! What do I mean the hole? Interested? Okay, I tell you now. One day, I told Anthony that I was not so 看好 the relationship between my Princess and her boyfriend since I knew that he would lie her or hurt her! I told him that I know there is a hole in front of my Princess and Princess has two choices. One is keep going and fall into the hole and the other one is stop from there and move backwards! What I look for is the latter one.
Since I am not Princess, I can't make the choice for her. In fact, if I have the capacity to do so, I won't do that as well! This is because I'm too loving her! I don't want her regret later! Thereupon, I give her freedom to make her own choice. What can I do? I think many of you may think that I will pull her back when she is going to fall into the hole! No, I won't but this doesn't mean that I won't bother her anymore or let her be hurt! No, this is not what I want and what I wish to do! What I can do is, jump into the hole and be with her in case she is falling into the hole!
Right now, I really can do nothing. This Saturday will be the first day of my exam, I hope that I can get 4 flat this time as I get A's in my coursework for all the subjects but I also know that it is not easy! However, I am having bad mood now! Can I continue my revision in this mood? Last time I couldn't but I think I can handle it now!
一路顺风
Tomorrow, my buddy will depart to Canada to pursue his tertiary study! I'm here to wish him everything the best over there!
I will lose a good buddy upon his leaving! He is the one who always listens to my problems. He will give me a great number of good advices every time he knows my problems. Instead, he usually finds me and tells me everything he likes. Thus, we know each other very well since we often share our things!
He will call me out to gather or 饮茶 whenever he came back from Selangor. Now, this won't happen anymore since he will only be back after graduating! Four years... not too long nor too short! Many things will happen and change within these four years! I hope that we are still best friend when the time elapses!
Luckily, there is msn which can enable us to chit-chat albeit we are geographically separated! However, the different in time zone probably will obstruct us but I believe that the fifteen-hour in difference is not a problem! Haha...
Buddy, keep in touch ya! Please update your blog from time to time since I think, our blog will be the best way for us to communicate!
I will lose a good buddy upon his leaving! He is the one who always listens to my problems. He will give me a great number of good advices every time he knows my problems. Instead, he usually finds me and tells me everything he likes. Thus, we know each other very well since we often share our things!
He will call me out to gather or 饮茶 whenever he came back from Selangor. Now, this won't happen anymore since he will only be back after graduating! Four years... not too long nor too short! Many things will happen and change within these four years! I hope that we are still best friend when the time elapses!
Luckily, there is msn which can enable us to chit-chat albeit we are geographically separated! However, the different in time zone probably will obstruct us but I believe that the fifteen-hour in difference is not a problem! Haha...
Buddy, keep in touch ya! Please update your blog from time to time since I think, our blog will be the best way for us to communicate!
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