Yesterday I been an observer for SIFE project. All the participants were really awesome. They impressed me a lot. I wish I could be one of them in the future as well but I clearly know my own abilities. It's not an easy stuff to be the same level with them but I will try.
What do I mean by 'close'? At last, I decided to 'close' myself. I won't think about this matter anymore, at least before my graduation. I had been disappointed in this matter for many times and I am often the victim in this matter as well as causing interruption to others. Maybe I am not talented. Ooops, it's nothing about talent, maybe it's my destiny which I can't go against even though I try to.
I don't know why, nowadays I become silent! Is this weird to me? If you know me, you surely will feel strange. However, this is the truth! Initially, I treat my blog as my own place, meaning that I will 'all-out' and express myself without any hesitation and concealment. Nonetheless, one of my friends told me that we should not be too frank! We should not tell others everything of ours. We should have our own privacy and confidentiality. Maybe she is right but this is not my style. If I want to conceal myself, then I won't start my blog from the beginning. Nevertheless, I will try not to totally expose myself anymore. If something is a secret, then it's a mystery to all of you. I will keep you guessing without revealing a single hint of it except to those I trust!
'Close' myself is a tough decision but the reality has forced me to do so. I have no choice! I think, I will change back to the one that everyone knew previous years as my current transformation's outcome doesn't meet my expectation. Then it would be great to 'release' myself and tease all the girls, hehehe...
Few days ago, I almost quit my study and eventually, I have made up my mind. I will continue my study and try my best to get the greatest achievements as possible. I know what should I do in the future and I know that is what I want. Sometimes, it's good to know what you want compared with just carry out your daily life without a dream. Bye.
