Finally

Finally, it happens!

When I started to create a new Facebook account, I had anticipated this would happen one day and I couldn't forecast that it happens today!

I know that you are curious on what has happened. Okay, I tell you now. Princess added me as her friend just now. I approved already. As usual, I viewed her profile and picture. I had tried my best not to add her in Facebook since I created my account. This is because I don't want something like now to happen! I admit that I viewed her profile once but I still could force myself not to add her.

However, today, she added me. What can I do? Of course approved the offer! When I saw one picture, I felt helpless! That is neither a kissing picture nor taking with her boyfriend. There is a description stating "Future da shao...yip yip^^". Meaning that, the girl probably is her boyfriend's sister. I know that I can't lie myself now, I know whom I really love!

Recently, I truly had no mood. I don't know why but I guess, I know what is the reason now! This Christmas and New Year, I even didn't send a message to Princess, neither she was! I did that because I thought she would be better without my vexation but it meant others to me. It means she has forgotten me and I am not important to her! Even though I will feel sad whenever I receive her news, at least, I am experienced now! I know how to handle this kind of situation! Just sms me as this will make me feel better.

Her ignorance makes me feel that I am alone! I am terribly lonely! I always try to conceal the feeling inside my heart just like sealing them up in a bottle! Nonetheless, I think, it is broken now! I hate myself! I hate myself for not letting her go solely! Why I will miss the feeling even that is so hurt whenever I am bored!

Why this happens now? This is not a joke! Now is the time for me to fight for my future! This semester is not joking! This semester is the harshest semester in diploma years. The last semester is just a piece of cake if I can pass through this semester! Therefore, why this feeling strikes me now? The God is really playing a fool with me!

Actually, after the Business Investment Game, I felt that I had no any obligation to Princess. To get the champion in Business Investment Game was the last promise I had done to Princess and I am sure that you all know what was the result and this was the only thing that I failed to accomplish for my Princess! Nevertheless, I saw her personal message in Facebook was “反感”! What happened again?

Many of my friends, especially female ones are praising me as good, intelligent, tolerant, humorous, handsome and so on. However, they are "answerless" or speechless when I ask them the reasons why Princess doesn't love me since I am so perfect! Of course, I admit that I am not as perfect as they said! Maybe the reason is what we so-called "feeling"! She maybe don't have the feeling with me but with her boyfriend. I will only wish them the best if he can treat my Princess whole-heartedly just like me! I am left with no other options but just to bless them because he is the only one who can make my Princess happy!

I don't know whether it is true as what I guess and I don't like to frame people. Thus, the 反感 may be addressed to me for can't forget her. Anyway, God bless you.

Anniversary 2

Hello everyone, today is the anniversary of my first date with Princess.

When I was in my college, I recalled a lot of things! Of course, those were related to my Princess! I still remember the day! I still remember that day was Tuesday and I was having my Accounting lecture and Princess was in the same lecture hall with me but we sat separately! I still remember that day I was doing the "devil woman" work when I came back from college. I still remember that I noticed that my car's tyre was punctured! I still remember that there was a small rain on my way to fetch my Princess. I still remember that I borrowed car from aL to fetch Princess due to the rain. I still remember the time when I saw Princess got down from her hostel! I still remember that how hot was the weather when we were chatting and waiting outside the college auditorium. I still remember the time when I was having my first dinner with Princess and many others.

I know that the day was the happiest day I had ever passed through up to this moment. I believe that it is not so easy to amend it because so far, I still can't find my source of happiness besides Princess! Yes, this is true! I don't mean that I was not happy, just that the happiness doesn't able to reach the peak level! For example, I just came back from Red Box with my friends. However, I was not "high" or happy throughout the day. I am having bad mood today and I don't know the reason behind it. Even though I still smiled and playful in front of others but I know that actually I was not happy!

I also realise that I don't have much time left since the final exam is around the corner! Thereupon, I decide to start my revision tomorrow and this is a MUST! I don't want to give myself any reason just to forgive myself for not going according to my plan!