Examination Phobia

Yo, I'm back to Penang and ready to be back in action at anytime. As you may already know, I was having final examinations this week.


I was having P2 Corporate Reporting's examination on Monday. I purposely went to college 10 minutes earlier. I chatted with my friends because I felt quite confident as P2 was one of my strongest subjects. Nonetheless, I started to panic once I saw the examination paper. Frankly speaking, I didn't prepare well as I wasted my Sunday on restoring my consciousness since I went to Genting Highlands on Saturday. Hence, I didn't do any tutorial question. The questions were mainly came out from tutorial questions and thus I felt so disappointed that I didn't know how to do. For your information, I didn't do any tutorial questions for all the subjects throughout the semester and even didn't practise them before going for the examinations. This was the consequence! Please don't be like me.


I attended P6 Advanced Taxation's briefing held by Mr Michael and Mr Chong. Mr Michael still recognised me, especially O.Y.J.. He kept on asking us whether we would like to take P6. We didn't give him an exact answer. After that, I went to SBS office to submit my ACCA acknowledgement letter to Ms Sumathy with O.Y.J.. However, I couldn't find her. Luckily Mr Simson was just outside the office and I found him for help. He asked me to leave my acknowledgement letter on her table. Before that, I chatted with Simson. Lo and behold, Ms Angeline came to kick my back knee since my back was facing her. I didn't notice her presence. She ambushed me successfully.


Actually, I was so surprised as I didn't expect her to do this on me as we were not so close. She was just my tutor in the first semester, one year had over, she still recognised me. I'm absolutely glad with it. I complaint to her that her paper was tough. She wanted to beat me, saying that the paper was so easy and she had gone through one round with us in the last lecture. Actually what I meant was the first question, group account's part. The notes were so tricky. Seeing her expression, I just told her that I hoped I could score full marks for her paper. 


We had a lunch with my 'cousin', she seemed like hinting me something. She told me that if I love someone, I must tell her, who knows she is actually loving me and just waiting for my proposal. If I don't confess, I may lose the chance! I replied her that if the girl loves me, she should tell me as well. Females always demand for fairness, “男女平等”, then why males ought to confess? She said this is because girls feel shy in this matter, they are scared of rejection. I replied her that these are the matters which boys will think and take care of too. Boys also are scared of being rejected. We even care that if we are rejected, we can't be friend with that girl anymore due to awkwardness. I'm not sure about others, I told her that if a girl proposes to me, I'll still be friend with her even though I reject her offer. The only reason I won't be friend with her is I already have a partner or my partner objects. So far, I'm still single and available.


After this disappointed paper, I felt helpless, I lost my mood to study the remaining papers. Indeed, I didn't have the mood to study P3 Business Analysis on the following day. I forced myself to finish, at least the lecture notes as I had gone through the text book once. I did it but I couldn't absorb the content and what worried me was I forgot what I had memorised before! My cousin stated that I gave myself too much pressure. He suggested me to take a short jog before going to college the next day.


I didn't follow his advice. This time, I felt extremely nervous! I almost vomited before I got into the examination room. Mr Yeo, my lecture was my invigilator. As usual, I was choosing the optional questions during the reading and planning time but I noticed an error, which was the sales revenue for AAA in the second statement. I asked Mr Yeo for clarification but he also didn't know. He asked me to wait for him to clarify with others. Alright, the examination started, I didn't like the environment as Mr Yeo and other invigilators was talking in front while I was sitting in the first row. They were distracting my attention. After the examination, I asked Mr Yeo for his internal revision class's date. He told me that he had not decided yet but he would ask Miow or Mr Simson to post it on Facebook's wall once he has confirmed.


Frankly speaking, I straight away felt relieving after the examination, it was really 松了一口气! When I was doing the last question, the song of 《怒火街头》, "没时间后悔" played in my mind and I started to get my form. After the examination, I went to CITC with O.Y.J. because he wanted to print his acknowledgement letter, then we had our lunch at T.B.R. with E.S.H.. I just knew that he was from Kedah during our conversation over there.


At night, my cousin brought his new dog back. A two-month-old pudle.

See, I could lift it with one palm. It was so cute, always bites and licks my fingers and toes. One thing very bad was it urinated and passed motion everywhere.

I was having my last paper, P1 Governance, Risk and Ethics' paper on Friday. Same thing happened again, I felt like want to vomit before the examination. Mr Tan Vooi Giap, my lecturer/tutor was my invigilator. He touched my shoulder when he saw me before the examination started and hence I started this paper quite well but I missed one sub-question of question one. I was nervous and wrote my answer on the draft's side. I found that I still got ample time after I finished the paper and hence I rewrote my answer on a fresh sheet of paper, tore it out and tied it together with question one's answer booklet. Nevertheless, Mr Tan said he was not the marker. The marker is a part-timer and hence he was unsure whether he/she would accept my answer which was on the draft's side or not. Regarding the answer on fresh sheet of tore paper, he showed me the examination's rules that students were not allowed to tear any answer booklet. He frightened me that I would fail and his expression and reaction were so funny.

Why I was so nervous until wanting to vomit even though I had done my part? Does this call exam phobia? Honestly speaking, I have taken so many tests and examinations, including those some of you may not have experienced before but this was my first exam phobia other than taking motorcycle's test. This exam phobia was also the most serious one! My quote “淡定有钱剩” also had no use to me! I must find out the root cause and settle it before the ACCA external examinations.

I went to DKC with E.S.H. to collect my F.A.S. T-shirt and Mr Michael and Mr Chong were going to brief us on P6's matter again. The briefing was similar to what I had attended on Monday and hence I just stayed until he gave us the Deloitte Tax Challenge's guidelines. Sorry, Sir. I talked to Mr Koh in DKC for the first time. He told us that this time the students' performance in P2 was not good. So far, the highest mark under his marking was 65. I convinced him that the best papers were at the back, just be patient. He said he was hopeful for that.


We ate our lunch at a Hokkien shop located at T.B.R.. E.S.H. asked me whether I was used to that food or not because it was in Hokkien style. I asked him not to worry so much since I'm a Hokkien too but I asked him for the difference of Hokkien's food. He told me that Hokkien's food was colder than others. 


I asked him whether I'm 花心？This was the impression that I gave to my friends since I was still a primary school student. He told me that I'm not. I asked him whether he judged this because he knew me for 1 year already but he replied me 'no'! He got this impression since we first met. He said the way I teased other girls was far behind his level and my way was considered normal and within the limit and control. As compared with him, my level was just Level 1 given his one was Level 10. He was right, I'm the person who 口花心不花 but most of the people don't notice this or don't believe this. 


I fetched him to change his pants and thereafter we headed to club house. We played snooker there. It was so cheap, just cost us RM4 per hour. However, we couldn't find the person in charge at the counter and this wasted us around 10 minutes to have this problem settled. We met Ms Angeline again over there. She looked at me with a huge surprise since I was holding the snooker balls. I wished her happy holidays just like what I told Ms Tai and Mr Chin just now. She asked me about the other papers. I told her that P3 was tough a bit whereas P1 was within my expectation. She teased me that now was my time to enjoy. Obviously, she knew me.


Do you think playing snooker is a so-called bad guy's game? I don't think so. Snooker makes me applied my physic knowledge the most. It tests us on accuracy and sharpness. I strongly agree that many people smoke in the snooker shop but this is the other thing in college. I also hate people smoking and luckily my dad quits smoking already.


This time, I became more confident and accurate for straight ball. At least, I just slipped my cue once. However, I still needed to polish hard on my reflection and refraction skills. Besides, snooker requires us to estimate our force, find a solution to break the snooker, snooker the opponent and locate the white ball after hitting the target. It's not just for acting cool purpose! Unfortunately, I'm lack of practices and I don't play more than 10 times so far.


I'm looking forward to snooker again, hopefully we can find some free time later.


At night, I was playing with the doggie again. He was so smart that he was able to unlock his cage's door. As a consequence, he urinated and passed motion everywhere again! He was seriously punished by my cousin. Here are the photos:

Aiks, he stole my 'first kiss', damn it...

Genting Highlands

Yo, I went to Genting Highlands last night. Yes, I went there last night until 5:45a.m.. Yea, it was at dawn, you're not seeing wrongly! Yesterday, my cousin came to her brother's house for printing where I stay during holidays and weekends. I told her that I almost finished inputting P2 Corporate Reporting and teased her that we would be able to go to Genting Highlands later.


Out of my expectation, she told her father. Hence, he came to my room and asked me to change my cloths. Frankly speaking, I rejected him initially but he insisted and said that there were two cars altogether and seats were available for me. I was left with no other options but to comply. We departed at around 11:45p.m.. As usual, the first thing we did is heading to casino. This was my second time been there.


When I passed through the entrance, the policeman blocked me. I showed him my identity card but he didn't want to check but to ask me taking down my cap. I was wearing my cap that time since my hair was messy. My cousin told me that this was to ensure that I was under the CCTV surveillance in case I cheated. Therefore, I straight away headed to toilet in order to adjust my hair and tied my cap on my jeans. This was what I used to do last time and I felt it fashionable and cool.


What a coincidence, Miriam Yeung was holding her concert over there. No wonder so many fans over there. Definitely, the concert was over as it was already around 1a.m.! There was a new big television sponsored by Panasonic Malaysia in front of Hotel Highlands.


My uncle asked me to make a Genting's member card but I declined after knowing that I couldn't be able to collect points without gambling. I would prefer to have one later after I cut my hair. I wandered around with my cousin in the casino. Our objective was the same, we were hunting for pretty female dealers, lolz... Unfortunately, we were disappointed. There were no pretty dealers around most probably it was too late. They needed to sleep earlier in order to keep their appearance nice. I watched the Tennis US Open in the casino. It was Roger Federer! He didn't wear his blue shirt anymore but wearing a red shirt, hopefully this colour can help him getting his World Number One back.


I went to the First World's casino for the first time. As compared with the other combined casinos, this one certainly was relatively smaller and quieter. The number or kinds of games also fewer. However, one thing was interesting was that there was a counter providing gambling guides regarding the rules and method of playing for each game. Oh ya, before I forgot. Before we left the combined casinos for First World's casino, we gathered around a Roulette table, my uncle told me it would be number 4 this time but I told him it would be zero. It ended up coming with zero. How lucky I was but we didn't play in the game.


Again, I wandered around First World Hotel with my cousin. A man standing near the escalators came to ask me whether I needed prostitution service. (要小姐吗？) Huh, how dare he did this kind of activity over there but it was a normal case. My uncle taught me playing Keno and he lost RM30. You couldn't win the banker unless you were especially lucky on that day.


We ate roti canai at around 5a.m.. After that, we went back to our house. When we reached, it was 7a.m.! Oh my God, I still needed to have a proper sleep as I would be having examination on the next day. I woke up at 10:30a.m. and felt unconscious as my brain lost its functions until after my brought my cousin's dog for urinating and passing motion in the evening. 


I sms William in the afternoon after confirming that I was able to log in to the myACCA's website, telling him that  I could help him to register and pay first. Nevertheless, he rejected my offer and stating that he would like to solve it on his own. Alright, it's always a good thing to be independent.


A Genting's trip spoilt my original plan, which was doing past year's questions. Nonetheless, I really couldn't make it. Hopefully I will be getting better tomorrow. Good luck everyone.