Price

Last month was the most difficult month for me this year. Luckily, I had gone through it.

Everything comes with a price. I believe that all of you know that there is no free lunch in this world, don't you? If you are going to strive for success, you must pay for it. Like Madam Karen Sue said, if you want to be successful, what are you going to exchange for it?

For my job, I can exchange it with my hard work and time. However, with all these being exchanged, can I make it this year? The answer is 'not necessary'! Thus, what's more?

I need to calm myself down, have a clear mind to make a proper planning. Instill some strategies in my plan, with emotional control, I'm still confident that I can make it, ceteris paribus. 

Getting money from outsiders is the toughest thing so far. People won't simply give you part of their money without a valid reason. On the other hand, we can't earn their money without putting in any effort. Do you agree?

Anyway, we don't depend on others. This is because the people who is always there to help us out is ourselves. The reason is very simple, people won't help you without a price paid for it. They have their own ambitious, they have their time, they are not born to help in your achievements. We can't say that they're wrong, but should we rate our friendship in this way?

How do you price yourself? If you think you worth more, do something!



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一路走好、安息、对不起

首先，很抱歉，我又食言了！我不再一如既往般地更新我的部落格。

今天，我要带来一则噩耗！我的阿公与世长辞了！

星期天（2014年7月20日）的早上，我开始发现阿公不对劲了！他睡在客厅，呼吸声很大，好像很喘似的。我当时是选择不理会他！之后，我去打羽毛球。

回来时，我又赶着冲凉、吃午餐，然后准备载欣怡、欣妍去Cash Flow Game。阿嫲和爸爸都叫我出门前，一定要叫“阿公”一声，告诉他如果有路就要好走了，不要担心。好像噩耗即将来临似的！

我走到他床的旁边，握住他的右手说：“阿公，我是阿俊。你放心，我们都长大了，都会赚钱找吃了。不用烦恼。就好好走吧。放心。。。”

当时，他只是开着一点眼睛看我，然后在那边喘。你们知道吗，要跟临终的人，尤其是亲人讲最后的话是何等的困难？我当时真是难以启齿！阿公年轻时喜欢我们叫他，但是当他情况不好时，我们也懒得理会他，甚至憎恨他！

现在回想起来，我真的很后悔、惭愧！我很自责！

Cash Flow Game到4点才结束游戏，我那时觉得不对劲，就去拿电话看。原来宜琳打了两通电话给我，而且妈咪在3点半也whatsapp我说“阿公严重了，快回来！”我马上赶回家，但是已经太迟了！阿公在4点05分就走了！

我叫他，喂他喝蜜糖水。他当时也是开着一点眼睛，好像死不瞑目一样，好像我不在他身边，他不甘心！我更自责！

我们决定在我们家楼下办治丧处！我们轮流守夜！

我几乎每一晚都哭泣的！真是想不到！因为他生前我是多么地痛恨他！不过，此时此刻，浮现在我脑海里的，就只是他生前对我的好。包括了他载送我的画面、成绩出炉后他给我的红包和写在红包封上的字、他带我们去游泳的画面、一起去打枪埔看乌龟。。。。。。

回想起这些美好的画面，我的脑海又浮现起他随意大小便、不要冲凉、游手好闲、懒惰不运动以致自己行动不便。。。。。。

我就是放大这些负面的画面而导致我如今的后悔！

我记得，我是多么的冷酷！我简直就是不孝！我曾经打过他、我曾经骂过他、我曾经不理睬他！我记得他曾经把一个杯递给我，要我帮他倒水，我却不理睬他，当他透明，还说“你自己不会自己倒？”

每每想到这里，我都很愧疚！我实在是很不应该！

对不起，阿公！我知错了，但是已经太迟了！

在他离开人世前一个月，他陆陆续续进出医院两次。我不曾探望过他！我只是在第二次时，去医院帮忙看守一下子而已。实在不孝！

我也曾经倒过饭给他吃！为什么我要放大他的坏习惯而不好好珍惜与他相处的日子呢？

除了我以前考取的好成绩外，我真是不曾好好侍候或者孝顺过他。

我曾经多么的渴望他去世，但是如今他确实已经去世了，我的心情是多么的不舍、多么的难堪！

如果时间可以倒流，我真的。。。。。。但是时间是不会倒流的！

现在，只好珍惜身边的每一位亲人、朋友！

朋友，不管你多么的痛恨一个人，但是当他离开时，那种心情是非笔墨所能形容的！不要把怨恨放大而蒙蔽了自己的良知！不然，你们就会像我现在一样那么地悔不当初！这个遗憾是一生的，千万不要开这个玩笑！

特别在此感谢颂强、顺城、CM Loh和坤伟的出席。

阿公，对不起！谢谢你曾经的付出。放心，我会照顾好我们的家庭！你一路走好，安息吧！我会永远怀念你。你是我心目中最好的阿公！

不孝孙骆永俊在此泪述
2014年7月25日

Legoland Malaysia

Sorry for the late late post today. My family and my cousin's family went to Legoland on the third day of Chinese New Year. We stayed in Sentosa Hotel which located quite far from Legoland since we ordered the entrance ticket for Legoland and living accommodation via Groupon.

The area was very large and we spent whole day playing over there. The Groupon that we bought didn't include water games.

The entrance.

Lego Hotel

Ticket counters.

Entrance for water games.

My grandpa aged 80++ didn't feel scared to play the roller-coaster. Hence, I strongly believed that they were safe and children-friendly.