Anniversary 2

Hello everyone, today is the anniversary of my first date with Princess.

When I was in my college, I recalled a lot of things! Of course, those were related to my Princess! I still remember the day! I still remember that day was Tuesday and I was having my Accounting lecture and Princess was in the same lecture hall with me but we sat separately! I still remember that day I was doing the "devil woman" work when I came back from college. I still remember that I noticed that my car's tyre was punctured! I still remember that there was a small rain on my way to fetch my Princess. I still remember that I borrowed car from aL to fetch Princess due to the rain. I still remember the time when I saw Princess got down from her hostel! I still remember that how hot was the weather when we were chatting and waiting outside the college auditorium. I still remember the time when I was having my first dinner with Princess and many others.

I know that the day was the happiest day I had ever passed through up to this moment. I believe that it is not so easy to amend it because so far, I still can't find my source of happiness besides Princess! Yes, this is true! I don't mean that I was not happy, just that the happiness doesn't able to reach the peak level! For example, I just came back from Red Box with my friends. However, I was not "high" or happy throughout the day. I am having bad mood today and I don't know the reason behind it. Even though I still smiled and playful in front of others but I know that actually I was not happy!

I also realise that I don't have much time left since the final exam is around the corner! Thereupon, I decide to start my revision tomorrow and this is a MUST! I don't want to give myself any reason just to forgive myself for not going according to my plan!

Happy Birthday and Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to all the followers! Other than Christmas Day, today is also my sister's birthday!

Before starting her birthday dinner, she took enough rest first. I purposely took her picture when she was sleeping, hiak hiak hiak... Yo, lazy pig... haha...

This is her birthday cake! Quite delicious, yammy... haha...

Thereupon, I guess you know how I spent my time today!

Christmas Eve

Today is Christmas Eve, it is supposed to be a joyful day but this is just a normal day to me!

Yesterday was Gail's birthday party and Bernard's Christmas Carol party. We attended all of them, just that we were late to Gail's party, sorry about that because we needed to help Bernard to set up and join his game!

In the Gail's party, Pei Pei was my partner or in the other words, she was my part-time girlfriend. Haha, why part-time? This is because she has boyfriend already and I don't have any feel on her. However, if there is any event I would invite her as my partner!

These are Gail and me! Don't look at my face since I was so "kiam pak" due to the expression! Maybe the flash light too bright! Haha...
These are Johnson, Anthony and me! Smile also not sincere! Haiz... I know I am not photogenic. Haha, bo huat!

Later, I believe that Princess will be going to Gurney Drive for the count-down with her friends as usual, so I rejected my friend's offer to go to gurney just to shop. Firstly, I am tired. Secondly, I dislike noise. Hopefully they all enjoy their activity and safe all the day.

保险之死缠烂打

刚刚，我的姨婆来我家，而且是带了我所谓那很讽刺的保险的妈妈来，她叫Eileen。她们来时，我正在冲凉。

她们两个“夹攻”我的阿嫲。她们正在游说我的阿嫲买Hong Leong的储蓄加人寿保险。我原本是不睬她们的，但是阿嫲突然叫我出去。我只好出去坐在椅子上，一面听她们的“催眠”，一面玩我的魔术方块！

重点来了，我看见Eileen拿一张保单契约出来了！她要我给她我的身份证，因为她要把我当成保单持有人及受益人，只是我的阿嫲和姨婆供那保单而已！我这就觉得很奇怪了，因为我的阿嫲竟然答应要签购那保单。

这时，我的表演时间到了。我当下拒绝缴交我的身份证！我用很委婉的方式叫我的阿嫲考虑清楚！这时，她们又夹攻我了！她们问我为何要再想清楚？我又不好意思说明一切，毕竟我的姨婆在嘛！可是，她们真是欺人太甚！丝毫不让我有喘气的空间。需知道，狗急就跳墙；把我搞得进退不能，我只好跟你撕破脸了！

她们一直说等供完六年后，阿嫲就可以拿这笔钱去旅行；万一阿嫲不幸途中逝世，我又可以继承那保险钱。。。。。。真好笑，你们不觉得你们的这番言论很讽刺吗？我毕竟也接触过你们的产品，而且近来，我也跟保险走得很近！这些只是你们用来哄客户的手法！我只好说我有私人理由！

但是，她们还是穷追不舍，死缠烂打地要我说理由，而且还侮辱我的爸爸和我！岂有此理，既然你那么不顾尊严，那我也不必跟你客气了！我对我的阿嫲说：“你的财产有多少，你我都心里有数，你能保证在这段期间，你不会用到钱吗？你要清楚，一旦你签了，那就必须供六年，而且是出多于入！你能吗？而且，你能保证你接下来每年都身体健康吗？”

这时，阿嫲开始动摇了！她们又“夹攻”我了！她们说我不想我的阿嫲在六年后去旅游吗？而且，六年而已，一眨眼就过了。况且，阿嫲身体又那么健康！收益人又是我，又不必我供，我怕什么？需要这么“奸鸡”吗？

这时我的火就来了！我对阿嫲说：“我不需要你的财产，你有钱就拿去享受，去旅行，去吃好料！”哇，这时，她们更厉害了！人生攻击了！姨婆说：“你的孙子不望你的财产，那为什么还要省吃俭用留一笔钱给他们？阿俊，你跟你的爸爸一样，太保守，追不上时代！而且，即使阿嫲过世了，我也区区需要每年一千多元供保单而已！如果一个大人在一年里连一千多元也储不到，那就等同废物！”

真是太岁头上动土！不知死活！我的忍让并不代表我懦弱，我无力招架！我只是尊重你们！正所谓：“人必自侮，然后人侮之”，既然如此，那我失礼了！我对她们说：“对，财产，我是不稀罕的，我会靠我的能力去赚！而且，我有我的一套，我未必一定要步你的后尘！”

姨婆还是说我不给身份证是因为我怕要我供，很老套，不开通。。。。。。如果说，我的阿嫲供了这份保单，会没钱医病，那她没有供保单时，又会有钱医病吗？难道我们身为子女及孙子的，可以袖手旁观，坐视不理吗？我们可以不帮忙缴清医药费吗？好，这时，我只好顺从她，我也懒得跟她多说，所谓“话不投机，半句多”和“秀才遇见兵，有理说不清”，而且我也觉得我不需要跟她多加解释，我不必这么低声下气地跟低贱的人说话！我就发挥我的演绎天分，我说：“对，你们说什么都对！我们很不孝的，我们不舍得出钱的！我们是那种不舍得或会心痛出钱的一群！”

可能我的演技太好了，她们听了个个都笑，忙说她不是这个意思。我当下不给她脸了，我马上说是，我们就是这样的，那又怎样？有时，当我们顺从她们时，她们就会得寸进尺，牵着我们进入她们的催眠里，但是我是谁？想要误导我？想要跟我辩论？开玩笑，麻烦你查一下我是谁先？用华语及福建话辩论可是我的强项呢？普罗天下可以赢我的真是寥寥可数！说真的，我还真是不曾遇过可以很有技巧地说赢我的人！

我就跟她说，总之我是不会签那保单的，如果我的阿嫲真的想要，那就等我的表哥旅行归来时，用我的表哥的名字！哇，她们还是不放过我！大声地说：“你真是不要你阿嫲的钱吗？保单只是写你的名字而已，很为难吗？如果写你表哥的名字，届时只有你的表哥可以拿钱，你们不会觉得你的阿嫲“大小心”吗？”

我就说：“我的表哥的身世，你又不是不知道，即使收益人是我的表哥，那又怎样？保费会有不同吗？我们只是相差一岁而已！给我的表哥，很过分吗？”Eileen投降似的点头说不过分！但是，我的姨婆还是不放过我，非要在今天close到case不可！唉，你才进来不到三十分钟就想close我的case，毕竟我也是保险界的一员，这么草草了事，谈何容易？

这时，阿嫲不想我们吵架，忙说她不要了！姨婆又对我的阿嫲说：“你收这么多钱干嘛？你的孙子又不稀罕，况且，你不想跟我去旅行吗？”阿嫲还是说不要了！姨婆又说，好，现在阿嫲有钱去旅行，但是她脚有关节炎，又这么去旅行呢？

哈哈，不错嘛！你都会说我的阿嫲有关节炎嘛，那又如何跟你去旅行呢？真是自打嘴巴！这时，她们就要离开了！但，出了门口嘴里还不停地碎碎念！一直说她只想跟我的阿嫲去旅行，同时，还帮我们这班孙子留财产！哈哈，真好笑！如果你不是会从中获利，为何会那么对签不到我们的case而耿耿于怀？为什么逼人太甚，否则我可以给你好下台！是你自找的！怨不得他人！

现时的保险业会遇到困境，全都是你们这些死缠烂打的保险代理员。既然如此，请你们“滚蛋”，请马上滚出保险界！

Hell

Yes, it's hell! Today, we failed to get champion!

Actually, I was quite confident to get champion after seeing our last rehearsal last night! Unfortunately, the "lagged" laptop made us pay for it! Shit!!! The slides were lagged even though I had tried to press a number of times on the air mouse! This in turn broke my ending!

I am not satisfied for ending this game as second runner-up! I think, we should be the champion but at least as a first runner-up! Hiaz, I don't want to talk much on that stupid laptop since this was over! I am sure that if the laptop was performing well, we at least would get the second place instead of third place.

Luckily Princess was not there, otherwise it would be a great disappointment! Sorry for all my supporters especially my Tailo, Melvern and my god sister! Sorry for presenting this lousy presentation and disappointing you! Anyway, thanks for your sacrifice on your nap just to accompany and support me! I promise that I will do better in the future! The best Recca is yet to come!

祝~安康

今天下午，我在C.A.里call我的Princess，因为我要确定她明天是否会来支持我？如果她有来，那她又是否需要我载送？很可惜，我call了四次，她也没接！

正当我们正在听Shian briefing时，Princess call我了。我问她明日是否on？可是，她说她明天需要陪她的妈妈去看医生！哇，发生了什么事？我很想问她，可是她说需要去忙了！我只好嘱咐她好好照顾她的妈妈，因为妈妈比较重要。我要她别把我们的约定放在心上，因为她说她会尽量赶来！

其实，倘若你要陪妈妈去看医生，我宁可你不来！因为我不想你太操劳，而且你的妈妈比我更需要你！如果可以的话，我更情愿放下这里的一切，马上飞过去陪你们！我不明白为什么？为什么当我听到这则消息后，我整个人，整个情绪顿时跌入最谷底！我变得无能为力，提不起精神来！

Come on！明天就要present了，别那样嘛！很抱歉，我办不到！对不起，我尽力了！我不知道是否是由于我失望Princess不能出席，还是我忧心她的妈妈呢？我想，应该是后者吧！不管怎样，我还是会尽我的全力去present，因为我们是很有机会得到冠军的！而且，我更加需要拿冠军来安抚Princess，好让她不自责！希望明天我的激情会回来吧！不然，台上的我只是外表激情而已，内心其实不是这样的！希望我的演技骗得过评审吧！

当然，我当下最希望的就是，我的Princess的妈妈可以安然无恙，早日康复吧！

Hell or Heaven

Hell or Heaven? What do I mean? Haha, I don't mean what in the Flame of Recca means! It means that there will be hell or heaven on this Friday!

For your information, this Friday will be the day for our final presentation of business game. I have invited quite a number of supporters such as my Princess, Tailo, Melvern, my god sister, her son... Those who are sure to come are my Princess and my Tailo. Thanks!

Haiz, I still think that our group's presentation is not up to my expectation, which means that we are not likely to win the first prize! If that is the case, I will disappoint my fans especially my Princess! Oh no!

However, we will do our best and I am sure that we can do it! What I hope is I can gain back the passion and enjoy the stage like my concert, then I am confident to beat Hock Kang who is the best presenter in the qualifying round!

Hell or Heaven? We shall see!

认识周年

今早八点半，我的手机响了。原来是我set的reminder！我恍然才知道，原来时间这么快，今天是我跟Princess的认识一周年！我真是的！连这么重要的日子也会忘记，幸亏有reminder！难道，我真是这么忙吗？是的，最近我真的比较忙，不过还游刃有余，只是没有时间温习功课而已。因此，再过两个星期的三个测验，我真是不知如何是好！惟有尽人事，听天命了！

回想起来，去年的今天，我还是那刚步入爱上人的阶段。我还记得当时我很害怕及紧张，毕竟那是我第一次主动approach异性！我清楚地记得当时我的手掌及脚板冰冷，可能是紧张吧！真没用，哈哈！当时跟Princess第一次接触时，心情真是战战兢兢！一来，怕吓坏她；二来，要顾形象；三来，不知道Princess是个怎么样的人？她又会不会接受我呢？哈哈。。。还好，Princess是我见过最随和的女生，也因此，我们很快地就一拍即合了！

今天，我没有跟谁说起，也没有跟谁庆祝，因为即使是庆祝，女主角不在也是没有意思的！不过不用紧，因为下个星期五就是我展现我的才华的日子。届时，我一定要力拼冠军。我要证明给全世界，特别是Princess看，我是行的！同时，我也要向看不起我的人呛声，“你说我不行，我偏偏行！”

又一课

最近，我又上了一课！原来，事情往往并不会如你所愿！

出尔反尔，勾心斗角。。。。。。我很讨厌这些！因此，我喜欢跟小孩子在一起，因为我很享受他们的“天真无邪”。在孩子的世界里，不会有所谓的心机和心计；他们很单纯的，不会有妒忌，猜心及阴谋！相反的，大人的世界老是充满种种的妒，恨，怨，愁，仇，蔑。。。。。我很不喜欢这种感觉。在这样的环境下，我觉得很痛苦。所谓“穷则变，变则通，通则久”，我想离开。

这并不是我懦弱与逃避，而是我已经觉得好累，我无能为力了！因此，我只想做好本分，其余的，就让它随缘吧！将来，我除了本分外，还是做好我的本分了。这些“世界”并不适合我，我会继续寻找一带适合我的“地方”，隐姓埋名！我不会再逞强，我会收敛些，尽量笑脸迎人！不管是好人，坏人或小人，一概一视同仁，差别只在于话多或话少，只要他们不陷害我。倘若他们陷害我，就好比激起沉睡多时的我。届时，他们自会得到他们“应有”的！坦白告诉你，我可不是好惹的！最好趁我还未动怒之前，见好就收！

每当我的心情不好或低潮时，我便会想起Princess。这是很自然的！我想她陪我，即使一句话也不说也好或者说些别的事也好，只要她在我身边，我就会觉得很放松，很自在！可能这是心理作用吧！可是，我不曾这么做（虽然我很想），因为Princess没有义务陪我，听我诉苦，而且她也不是我的谁！不过，我发现，当我想起Tiffany的样子及笑容时，我马上便会露出难得的微笑！可能她的笑容很“真”吧！

恭喜 2

恭喜啦！今天是我的二表姐出嫁的大好日子！我在这儿祝她永结同心，永浴爱河还有最重要的早生贵子！

原本我是要拍几张照片的，因为我的部落格算是蛮简单的，毫无声色，除了文字，还是文字！哈哈，不好意思哦！我会努力改进的！

为什么今天还是一样没有照片过过瘾呢？理由很简单，我找不到我所要拍的镜头。如果我出去拍，又显得我太碍眼，毕竟我并不是主人家嘛。而且，我也感到挺受冷落的！所以，我就索性不拍了！

我近来都甚少出席这种场合的，除非是我从未去过的餐厅或酒店，当然，前提是我要空闲啦！为什么呢？我自闭吗？不是，只是我不想参加这种吵吵闹闹的环境！相比起吵闹，我更倾向于安静！况且，出席这类场合，也就是说我得跟我的家人一起。这就是我所不想的！可能是话不投机，不同频道吧！

你知道吗？整个晚宴，我都觉得异常的寂寞！我原本是打算邀请Princess一同出席的，顺道向全世界公布我们的关系，但是她还未跟她的男朋友分手，所以身份尴尬，不方便！倘若我那么荣幸，能够请到Princess陪我出席，我会是当场的主角。我们会是羡煞旁人的一对！全场的焦点定会是我们！很可惜，这一幕没有发生！如果当时Princess在我身边，我便不会那么闷！

不管如何啦，再一次，我祝一对新人白头到老！

Bad Luck

I don't know why recently I am so "black"! I can't feel my energy after my group's top 10 presentation, it might be I had used up my energy. Come on, so long time already, you should have been coming back!

Similarly, this happens to Tristian. We can't make a right move in dealing with the stock market. All of our purchased stocks are suffering losses except MEDIA which just earns us less than RM1000. Next week is the deadline of the trading period, I hope that we will be better because we really don't much time left!

Even though the mark allocation for trading is just 20% but I think it is quite significant as this probably will be one of the key factors to achieve my target--Number one! Besides, I feel that our presentation is not the best among others! Haiz, I won't let my spirit down as this is not the time! I have to motivate my teammates as well and I wish God can bless us!

Feeling

Why? These two days, I missed my Princess so much! I had been trying to avoid myself from being vexed by this feeling but eventually I failed to make it!

I was depressed! I don't know why I will miss her so much until I can't free myself from this kind of feeling. It is truly terrible and horrible! I couldn't concentrate on my work when this feeling stroke me!

Last time, when I was annoyed by this feeling, I hoped that I could escape as soon as possible! This kind of feeling didn't irritate me anymore since I was able to let go recently! Nevertheless, I missed that feeling! It is so contradicted!

I don't know why I will miss the feeling even if it is suffering! Perhaps I want to have somethings that relate to my Princess! 犯贱! I realise that I still love her but the problem is, I am not dare to love her and she has a boyfriend already even though she is quarreling with him! I believe that they will recover soon as my Princess just 斗气 with him!

If I were my Princess, I would cease this relationship as he couldn't do what I hope for. In the other words, he is not her real man! Their problem has been happening for several times but he still doesn't want to change! That means, this is his behavior and if Princess can tolerate with him, she doesn't need to feel angry now. However, I can promise here is I won't be like that in case we are having relationship.

I also know that I shouldn't think like this as her boyfriend might be having somethings which strike my Princess's fancy. If the thing or behavior is the element which makes you love him so much, then you should accept it!

As a third party, I don't know the exact incident, what I can advise is accepting it if you don't mind and if you can't accept it, please leave him instead of suffering continuously. It is not practical and rational to continue this relationship just because of this was your choice. Princess, you still can reverse! There is someone who is still waiting for you!

Well Done

Today, my team was having a Business Investment Presentation in my college. This was also the first time for majority of us to present on the stage.

We practised once before we entered into CA and during that rehearsal, I suddenly forgot my speech! Oh my God! Luckily, nothing happened when we are presenting on the stage.

Our overall performance was quite good but there were some points that we needed to bear in mind and improve ourselves. We got remarkable comments from the judges. Even though there are still lots of outstanding teams but I am quite confident that we will move to the final. Thereupon, see you in the final!

Appreciation

Haiz, please la, please appreciate it! This is specially addressed to my Princess's boyfriend.

I saw my Princess on at about 8.20p.m.. I chatted with her after struggling for a moment since I saw her personal message. She changed her personal message thrice throughout our conversation! These messages were full of disappointment! I was worried that my Princess felt disappointed and upset.

I asked her whether she was okay? She said she was okay temporarily. This was worrying me even more. I tried to entertained her. She said it was her choice, so she would take it. I thought it was high possible about her boyfriend. I didn't know why I didn't feel happy after knowing this since this could be my opportunity to strike my Princess's fancy. Maybe I know that she is really in the happy mood when she is with her boyfriend. Yes, no doubt! This is clearly shown on their pictures.

Initially, I didn't want to bother her. I had struggled but eventually I lost! I couldn't concentrate to prepare my presentation script. Thus, I paused to a halt and counseled my Princess first. I entertained and teased her. I even invited her to watch "Storm Rider II" next month but I don't know whether she is free that time.

I invited her to support me on this Friday but she said she needs to go back on this Thursday as she will have motorcycle practical on this Friday. Haha, she learns how to ride a motorcycle already without passing her car test! Good luck to you!

I don't know why? Why you can abandon my Princess? Why don't you appreciate her? For your information, she is the best ever in the world. She chose you rather than chose me! So, why don't you just make her happy? Where were you when she was sad? Where were you going when she needed you? Why you can't realize it? Why you still want to play games even though she has approached you? Why you want to alienate her? Why? Why? Why?

As a third party, I am not qualified to give any comments or suggestions. What I hope is, please appreciate what you have before you regret!

Challenge

There will be a big and significant event for S.I.C. this Friday! We will have a presentation in CA, that means we have to present on stage!

It sounds so scary, I don't know whether I will panic or not during that time. However, this is a good experience to all of us. This is quite challenging and I hope that we all will get through it with outstanding performance due to our bad ranking in the proposal section.

Even though the first place for presentation will not get us too much marks but at least, we will have a chance to move to the final (top 4). I really look forward to moving to the final and present in front of all the D.A.C. students while exempting 10 marks in our Financial Management test!

Nonetheless, our slide shows are still yet to complete. Humiliating? Haha... I hope God will bless us and stay with us till the final.

Roller Coaster

This week, the stock market collapses! As a result, the stocks that my group has invested collapse as well and due to this, we suffer over RM60000 losses!

Previously, our performance still quite well but this didn't last long especially after the announcement of the Budget 2010. This year, the budget seems to be not helping investors, instead it destroys the purchasing power!

Arr... What to do? Anyone can recommend me a stock which will rise more than 100% since the deadline for this investment game is this Friday! God... Save us!

How Do You Do?

Recently, I am extremely busy and tired! I will be facing lots of assignments, presentations and others soon.

Today, since my class ended earlier, I managed to grab some times to online. I saw my Princess when I on my msn. I viewed her msn profile and noticed that she wrote “失望失望失望...！！！appear in my brain..." yesterday! Wow, what happened to her? I decided to find her with intention to find out her problem and perhaps help her out of trouble! Unfortunately, she still hasn't replied me until now. I have not been contacting my Princess for quite a long time! Erm, not so miss her during this period. Is it because I am busy with the stuffs?

Then, I on my Friendster account and viewed my Princess's account. I was SHOCKED! I saw that she listed herself as in a relationship in her second account! I think she is really serious in this relationship this time! I wish you good luck and hope that you enjoy this great relationship! Erm, I was not feeling breathless when I saw this but frankly speaking, I was a bit disappointed!

Princess, you still can call me for help or tell me your problem so that I can lend you my hand. Remember, you are still my Princess as usual and as previous albeit we are not in the same year of study now. Really, if you have any problem, please don't feel shy to find me!

Vexation

After "The Day", I had dreamed my Princess twice in the following consecutive days. Last night, I didn't dream her but the dream was some sort related to her.

I dreamed that I received an sms from her but it was not from her ordinary handphone number. I was curious so I called her to confirm. It was a new handphone number and the person receiving the call was a boy. The boy then passed the phone to his brother. His brother was my Princess's boyfriend.

He sms me to test me. He did it! He prohibited me from contacting my Princess. Wow, I was so scared! 开玩笑, don't ever try to mortify me like this! You can't control me! In fact, I didn't contact my Princess for quite a long time already. As long as you treat my Princess well, I will bless you all! He warned me that if I contacted my Princess again, he would beat me and my Princess up. I went mad after hearing this! I applied some of my law knowledge to reply him. I told him that if he was dare enough to do it, he could find me and beat me up. Of course, I would revenge also because I was not stupid and just let him beat me. I told him if he prohibited my Princess from calling me, I would sue him under Section 16 Contracts Act of Civil Law. This section is about undue influence! And if he beat my Princess, I would sue him under criminal law!

After that, I woke up. Amazing, after "The Day", I didn't miss my Princess anymore, how come I still dreamed her? Luckily, these dreams didn't vex me! This semester really is the toughest semester. Very hectic and busy! Hopefully I can handle it!

"The Day"

Yo,万众期待的"The Day"终于来了！今天，我终于完成了"The Day"的任务！

大概下午两点七个字，我就到达Princess租屋的楼下，我马上致电叫她下来。我下车，倚着车门等她。不一会儿，她就到了。我把礼物交给她，并对她说"sorry"，因为礼物来迟了。她说，她早就猜到我一直说要给她的东西就是她的生日礼物。哈哈，不错嘛，蛮聪明的！

我顺道问她，我是否该提出上诉！我很伤心，因为我令她失望了。她一直以为我能够拿4 flat，怎知如今我却辜负了她。我告诉她，我拿全部A，只是英文拿B+。Walao，我不曾在拉曼拿这样的成绩，这是有史以来，最差的成绩！我想来想去，越想越不爽，因为我的coursework拿A呀！而且，这次coursework 60%，final exam才40%而已呀！也就是说，我的final exam只拿到65分而已咯！不可能的嘛，我有这么差吗？拿A-就偷笑了！我问Princess我该不该appeal，因为我的阿姐说10个人去appeal，9.9999个会拿到一样的成绩，也就是说败诉！我不知道阿姐是对我的语文科没有信心，还是对他们lecturers太过有信心！

Princess也支持我去appeal，但是她也赞同我阿姐的看法，因为她的朋友也是这样的！她之所以支持我去appeal，是因为她知道如果我不去appeal，我的心里又会不爽！哈哈，真了解我！不过，在这之前，她问我如果我败诉会怎样？我答她说无所谓，反正影响不大！因为以目前的成绩呢，我的CGPA还有3.93，但如果我得到胜诉的话，也就是4 flat，我的CPGPA会上升到3.95。只相差0.02，也没差啦。只是，有了Princess的支持，还有为了这一口气，我决定去appeal！

过后，我就跟Princess告别了，因为我要去Red Box唱K了。我邀请她去，但是她说她下午四点半有课，我只好默默地目送进入电梯。在我去Red Box的途中，Princess sms我说我送她的礼物太透明了。哈哈，我早就警告过她了！我给她三个选择，一是多穿一件衣服或一条裤子；二是把它丢掉；三是把它当睡衣。她谢谢我送她礼物。其实你不必这么客气啦，因为这很可能是我送你最后的礼物，况且，只要你喜欢就好。

悄悄地告诉你们，在我跟Princess的见面和谈话后，我并没有依依不舍的感觉。这是否代表我已经放下了呢？还是我压抑得漂亮呢？我希望不是后者！虽然这个"The Day"跟我想象中的"The Day"有少许的不同，但是我还是相当满意的。

心淡

今天在college看了Princess的time table后，就有一股莫名的坏感觉！

在回家的途中，我sms给Princess。我问她有没有来college，几时回，这个学期拿几科。。。最后，我知道她今天就会乘坐学院巴士回家。我毛遂自荐要载她，顺便把"The Day"要做的事办完！很不幸的，我被拒绝了。她说她不想麻烦我，而且她已上了巴士。

可是，这则拒绝的简讯来得很晚。我怀疑她是故意的，因为她要避我！是我做错了什么吗？"The Day"会是我对你的告别式，连这么简单的要求你也不能满足我吗？在这段假期期间，我一共送了两盒“月饼”给你，但我却连一盒“月饼”都未曾从你哪儿获得！就连一封短讯都没有收到！实在是很心淡！你到底发生了什么事？为什么你的态度会180度转变？

一直以来，我都认为纵使你现在不属于我的，但有朝一日，你一定会属于我的，我一直认为目前的状况只是暂时性罢了！不过，这种感觉已经在我心里渐渐地淡化了！虽然我想维持下去，但我无能为力！为什么对于你，我老是力不从心！在你面前，一向大男人的我总是显得十分懦弱！对于你的事情，我总是得得到你的permission后方能去实践！为什么主动权一直不在我这儿呢？是我过分尊重你吗？

其实，你的拒绝并没有达到你的意愿！你老是说不想麻烦我，可是你知道吗？我不曾觉得这是麻烦！试想想，倘若我觉得麻烦的话，我还会offer你吗？就算你不想我继续对你纠缠不清或有所误会，也不必婉拒我的！你没有权利控制我对你的感觉！扪心自问，我在你面前一直以来都规规矩矩的，我并未曾在你面前令你难堪，放肆过！因为我不想你不开心！即使我有多不舍或心酸，我都一力承担，丝毫不敢在你面前透露半句！为什么我要这么做？不是因为我扮伟大，而是我在意你的一切！任何伤害你的事情，我都不愿意做，情愿自己一个人抵！我这么做，还不够吗？你有必要这么绝吗？

每个人都有他自己的价值。但是，我丝毫感觉不到我在你心目中的价值！我答应你，等到"The Day"谢幕之后，我会自动在你面前消失！我不会再发简讯给你，顶多是forwarded message。可是，你可以答应我吗？要活得自在，还有不要当我透明，即使只是hi-bye friend也okay。

败给妳

Princess,我不是输你的boyfriend而是败给你！

在这个学期期假期间，老实说，我是有想你的，不过这种感觉并没有像以前般浓厚！这是不是证明了我已放下了，我已痊愈了呢？虽然离期假的最后一天还有几天的时间，但so far我还没有收到你的一封简讯或一通电话！其实，我是很失望的！你知道吗？在这段时间里，我的身边发生了很多事情，我很想与你分享，但我知道，我不可以这么做，免得节外生枝！可是，这并不意味着你不可以联络我啊！你真狠心，很残忍。即使是一则forwarded message也可以令我开心及安心！

你知道收不到你的消息是多么的恐怖吗？我老觉得你有问题，在加上每日星座书里的描述，更令我着急万分！偏偏，我又得不到你的消息。我又能如何呢？惟有假扮若无其事咯！我得不断地游说自己说你现在很安全，很开心！

我真是败给了你的执著！想不到你会比我更“硬颈”！我输给你的坚持！我输给你的固执！如今惟有一如往常般的，每晚睡前都祝福你！我要上天保佑你“健康，幸福，快乐”！看来，我也是时候把应送你的礼物给包扎起来了。原本，我是想说，如果你在这段期间分手的话，我就能把我为你而写的歌词连同那份礼物给包扎起来。以现在的情况看来，已经不需要了！因为，我相信你们的感情会随着时光的飞逝而更深厚！

很多人都问我，既然Princess都不喜欢我，为什么我还要送礼物给她？理由很简单，即使她不爱我或暂时不爱我，我还是得履行我的承诺！虽说Princess不曾说过要我的礼物，可能她根本就不稀罕吧，但这是我在老早前于心里所对她许下的诺言！我必须做到，就当作是跟她的道别吧！因此，我会在这几天里把礼物包好。

Princess,我真是败给妳！

Approaching

"The Day" is approaching! The nearer "The Day" it is, the more reluctant I am!

I know you are curious about what is "The Day". It will be someday within the coming fortnight! I will tell you later, so now just keep it as mystery.

Sit Straight

Yup, we need to sit straight, otherwise you will regret like me!

Today, when I arrived at my house after playing badminton, I took up my guts to look at my back through a mirror. Oh my God, I eventually found out the reason why I became shorter. It's my spinal cord!

I like to sit in a "lying L" manner albeit I know the serious consequences. However, I will only feel comfortable by sitting in this way. I used to convince myself that I had to change my way of sitting but this couldn't last long. It just lasted about 2 minutes, then I would sit in "lying L".

My "disperseverance" now teaches me a lesson. I have a "S" shape spinal cord now! SHIT!!! No wonder nowadays I became shorter! Arr... What should I do now? How can I have my normal spinal cord back? Who can tell me? Haiz...

一路走好

昨天下午大概五点多，我的叔婆就“走”了！她于上周六就中风入院了，没想到，她昨天就与世长辞了。

叔婆是我最尊敬的老人家之一，因此她的离开也让我感到十分痛苦！这则消息来得实在是太突然了，我在毫无防备之际，得知这则消息后，就觉得十分地无助！

想不到，我最后一次见到叔婆竟然是这个新年！当时她还好好的，只是视力不佳而已。万万都没想到如今她竟然“走”了。叔婆，应该算是我的远房亲戚，我也不知怎么的，我总觉得我跟她很投缘。纵使跟她不熟，但我总是很期待能够去见她，很想跟她在一块儿，因此我总是很期待去她家拜年的那一天。现在，一切都没有了！

叔婆，你就一路走好吧！我会牢牢地记住你那慈祥的脸孔以及你说过的话！

Ninja Saves Princess

Yo, today is the last day for my Year 2 Sem 1 exam! However, this paper worried me a lot since I was not so confident to score this subject-- Management Accounting Fundamentals! I am scared that I can't score an A for this subject! If I fail to make it, my CGPA will drop agan! Thereupon, this sem, I have to at least maintain my CGPA as next semester will be the toughest semester for Diploma courses!

After the exam finished, I met Ms. Theresa. I teased her by inviting her to watch movie at GSC. However, she didn't reject me but tell me that she was busy and just would be available after 4:40p.m.. Haha, I was not in college already during that time. At least, I know that she considers me as her friend since last time, when I invited her, she would say she was busy!

When we were ready to go to Red Box, my handphone rang. Princess sms me! She was not afford to wait for bus! I immediately called my friend and asked her that what time did she book for the room? Luckily she answered me 1:00p.m., that meant I had time to fetch my Princess since it was just 11:45a.m.. I left Anthony and Penny opposite the Gurney Plaza and headed to jetty to "save" my Princess!

Princess waited me at the jetty's bus stop. When I fetched her, it had been 12:10p.m.. I invited her for lunch but she said she didn't want if I didn't let her treat me! Haha, she didn't accept even though I had explaint to her that I had money since I had part-time job and negotiated with her to treat me once for every three times I treat her! Her refusal made me felt that she didn't want to owe me much and didn't treat me as her family member! Yes, she was right, I had no right to be her family member!

She said initially she wanted to treat me Mc'Donald but she also knew that I would pay for her so she just asked me to eat at road side's stalls. So, we went to the road side of 白云山路. I had been having my lunch over there and knew one special term. The "Koay Tiaw" soup uncle calls bowl as "love". Haha, very funny, right?

Before we arrived, we chatted a lot. I asked her that when she wants to take for car test and she said she will take during holidays. Well, but she will be going to Kedah, her boyfriend's hometown during semester break. She told me that she maybe will not be there already. She said she just went to Genting Highland with her boyfriend and her best friend, Ze铭 on 31 August. She told me that her boyfriend was scared to play roller coaster too! I answered her that her boyfriend might be scared of accident, then he would not be able to be with her anymore. She laughed and said she was a girl and dared to try then why not boy!

She cheated me by asking me that did I want to eat Hokkien Mee? For your information, I am a very linear people until others will feel that I don't have my own opinion（主见）. Actually I just want to make your life easier, that's why I always try my best to cope with you. She paid at once after placing the order. No wonder the stall's uncle smiled while looking at me!

When the uncle served us, I asked him why didn't take the money from me instead of taking from my Princess. He smiled and said next time. Okay, I assumed you promised me already! Princess told me that the uncle asked her to eat first, then only pay him but my Princess insisted! He asked my Princess why she didn't want to let me treat! Haha...

She treated me for drinks as well! Arr... why? Why didn't want me to treat you? Suddenly, her handphone rang. After she finished her call, she asked that whether I knew who was the one who called her? I said "no" since I didn't pay attention in her conversion as this is very immoral but I saw her smiled. Then I said it was from her boyfriend! She said she must answer his call. One time, she was hanging out with her friends in a shopping complex, the battery of my Princess's cell phone almost used up and his boyfriend called her during that time. Due to this reason, she didn't answer the call. Her boyfriend kept calling her and at last, she said that her battery was running out and shut the phone. Nevertheless, her boyfriend called again. She used her friend's phone to call him and explain everything to him but her boyfriend insisted to know where she was and go to the complex to fetch her! Her boyfriend is a very anxious people, he is scared of losing my Princess. But on the other side, I feel that he is not confident in himself! When he arrived, he wanted to beat my Princess's friends. My Princess said she had never seen her boyfriend acted like this. She was worried so she asked her boyfriend to send her home immediately. He warned my Princess not to hang out with the friends again.

Nonetheless, there are also some remarkable points such as he is willing to change for my Princess now. He will try to cope with my Princess and not to hurt my Princess again. My Princess also showed me the card which his boyfriend made for her after she had been asking for many times. Even though it was not beautiful but I think I can't make it as well due to my poor art! Actually, my heart was pain when I saw the card but I had to pretend nothing happened!

I also knew that her boyfriend is quite "competent". Although his hometown is Kedah but he is working at his father's shop at Bukit Mertajam. My Princess told me that, her boyfriend will call her to his shop when he is boring. However, when my Princess arrived, he was playing computer games and acted like she had never come. My Princess was angry and quarreled with him after this happened many times. Yes, if you want to play computer games, just go ahead. Don't call my Princess to accompany you if you don't want to bother her!

Then, I asked my Princess to take her study seriously next year and try to make new friends next year since I will be departing to Setapak to pursue my Advanced Diploma in the coming May. Therefore, I will not be able to help her anymore but I asked her to call me as well if she has problems. I will try my best to help her! Before she went, I wished her good luck in her exam!

大声家族

我来自“大声家族”！何谓“大声家族”？那就是讲话大声！

我的家人，除了我的大妹和妈咪例外，其余的都是大声公及大声婆！尤其是我的阿嘛，阿伯和我的老豆！最令我顶不顺的就是我老豆！他讲话一向来都很大声！即使我要求他放低声量，也要跟我用喊的不相上下！你们可以想想看有多大声！

我就在这样的环境下成长，因此我的声量也不小，只是斗不过他们罢了，但比起我身边的朋友也都还要大！我并不是蔑视讲话大声的人，也不是觉得他们粗鲁，同时我也明白家丑不可外扬的道理，但我真是忍无可忍了！

平常跟他们出街时讲话大声已觉得很丢脸了，现在可是我的关键时期呢！他们还在我温习时提高声量，真是太岁头上动土！我觉得他们很不文明！简直就是破坏了家在我心目中的形象！我很生气，因为他们明知故犯！明知我在温习的嘛，至少我有特意地在你们面前拿书晃来晃去，为何你们不能为了我放低声量甚至避免交谈呢？为什么要尽情地讲直至我在房间里还能听得一清二楚呢？

从前，我曾对他们说过，他们也有迁就我一下，但只维持了15分钟“甘大把”！这次，我不跟他们讲了！我觉得只要他们有心或通情达理的话，我根本就不必一讲再讲！你们长大了嘛，整天被我骂，你们不会“见笑”吗？而且，我骂你们，你们又会倒过头来骂我无礼，假扮文明，自以为我比你们多读几年书就扮高贵！好！既然你们要这么地为你们辩解，那我就认咯！

要我考好成绩的是你们！要我维持着奖学金的也是你们！不给我安宁的偏偏又是你们！到底你们想我怎样？给我个答案啊！拜托啦！加起来都百多岁了，麻烦你们成熟一点！给我一点空间好吗？我没有考试时，你们要讲多大声，随便你们！但，不要到我的生死关头时，也来这招好吗？

你们以为我考试很简单吗？你们以为我很聪明吗？不要被我小学和中学时的政府考试成绩所误导，以为我很厉害！你们以为我考取的好成绩像放屁一样容易吗？拜托啦！就连放屁也要找地方放啦，更何况是考试！可能你们可以当着大众面前放屁，但很抱歉，我是一个很爱面子的人，我办不到！

你们的财政状况我很清楚，所以请不要拿我的奖学金来“交飞”！不要老是说倘若有财政困难的话，你们会拿家的房契去押给银行以换取金钱来供我读书！情愿辛苦地再供多一次房屋贷款，也要我继续读书！不要说得这么伟大啦！我根本就不需要，我只要你们跟我合作！就这么简单！

有鉴于此，一向恋家的我其实很想逃离这个所谓的“家”！因为，这并不是一个可以给我安宁的家，这并不是我梦寐的家！不想以后见不到我或失去我这个儿子的话，请“醒目D”

对不起

昨晚，阿嫲拿了一堆文件给我，要我把阿公打枪埔的屋契找出来。我在寻找的过程中，发现了一封阿公写给我们的信，好像是遗书似的！

我阅读了那封信后，感到很惭愧！我觉得我很对不起我的阿公！原来，他对我们的期望是如此之高的！他的文法很好，甚至好过我。他要我们通晓三大语文，即华语，英语及马来文。同时，他还希望我们精通电脑。他认为，只有很好地掌握这几样，才能出人头地，在这个社会上有立足之地！

一直以来，我都很讨厌他！因为他的行为令我很反感！我还记得有一次，我叫他在我补完英文后到学校来载我。因为性格内向的我，不想跟陌生人在一块儿，所以我不要搭巴士，走路回又嫌路程太远！怎知，他因为校卫阻止他进入学校范围就打道回府，连支会我一声都没有。从那起，我就异常地不爽他，每次都对他大呼大叫的！

现在回想起来，我也蛮小心眼的，毕竟这件事也已发生三年了！真是兔崽子！我怎么可以这样呢？毕竟他是我的长辈！而且，在更早以前，他也是逢电必到啊！我记得，在我刚搬来宝石花园时，阿公几乎每个星期都会带我们孙子们去游泳。我们就忘我地玩水，而他就坐在一旁看我们玩！现在想起，不知他当时会不会寂寞？

如今，阿公老了，记忆力衰退了，好像得了老人痴呆症似的！我现在又能怎么帮他呢？

Again

Just now, I on my Friendster account. I accidentally clicked to open the account of my Princess's boyfriend. Okay, now I know that he is 22 years old, no wonder Princess told me that he is working. He is from Kedah!

I clicked to view his picture. I noticed that Princess is totally different when she is with him. Her smile is so attractive and “放”, unlike the one with me. This is what I lose to her boyfriend! He can make my Princess happy but he is also the one who hurts my Princess the most! I hate him!

I didn't know why, I felt helpless and breathless when I viewed the pictures! My Princess is so beautiful and sweet in the pictures! Maybe I jealous or envy him! Then I viewed his public picture. What made me so angry was he still put his ex-girlfriend's pictures. I didn't mean that he couldn't do that but please don't put those hugging ones! This would hurt my Princess!

Again, I felt energyless! I was re-falling in love with my Princess again before I saw those pictures! I felt that the difference or distance between my Princess and me was narrowed recently but I can do nothing after seeing those pictures. Maybe I was too childish!

I don't hope that there is a hole in front of my Princess! What do I mean the hole? Interested? Okay, I tell you now. One day, I told Anthony that I was not so 看好 the relationship between my Princess and her boyfriend since I knew that he would lie her or hurt her! I told him that I know there is a hole in front of my Princess and Princess has two choices. One is keep going and fall into the hole and the other one is stop from there and move backwards! What I look for is the latter one.

Since I am not Princess, I can't make the choice for her. In fact, if I have the capacity to do so, I won't do that as well! This is because I'm too loving her! I don't want her regret later! Thereupon, I give her freedom to make her own choice. What can I do? I think many of you may think that I will pull her back when she is going to fall into the hole! No, I won't but this doesn't mean that I won't bother her anymore or let her be hurt! No, this is not what I want and what I wish to do! What I can do is, jump into the hole and be with her in case she is falling into the hole!

Right now, I really can do nothing. This Saturday will be the first day of my exam, I hope that I can get 4 flat this time as I get A's in my coursework for all the subjects but I also know that it is not easy! However, I am having bad mood now! Can I continue my revision in this mood? Last time I couldn't but I think I can handle it now!

一路顺风

Tomorrow, my buddy will depart to Canada to pursue his tertiary study! I'm here to wish him everything the best over there!

I will lose a good buddy upon his leaving! He is the one who always listens to my problems. He will give me a great number of good advices every time he knows my problems. Instead, he usually finds me and tells me everything he likes. Thus, we know each other very well since we often share our things!

He will call me out to gather or 饮茶 whenever he came back from Selangor. Now, this won't happen anymore since he will only be back after graduating! Four years... not too long nor too short! Many things will happen and change within these four years! I hope that we are still best friend when the time elapses!

Luckily, there is msn which can enable us to chit-chat albeit we are geographically separated! However, the different in time zone probably will obstruct us but I believe that the fifteen-hour in difference is not a problem! Haha...

Buddy, keep in touch ya! Please update your blog from time to time since I think, our blog will be the best way for us to communicate!

New Look

This afternoon, Princess asked me for help again. She asked me to fetch her to college. After negotiating with her, I decided to fetch her after my MIS tutorial. However, problem arose! I didn't drive to school nor Anthony, therefore where could I find a car to fetch her?

I asked many of my friends. Firstly, I asked SC. He agreed but with a condition, that was he been the driver. He said he wanted to know my Princess. Actually, I knew what his purpose was, he didn't want anyone to drive his car, maybe this is due to he is lack of confidence towards others! Nonetheless, I didn't want a third party getting involved in the case of Princess. If the offeror was Anthony, I certainly would accept it because I felt safer, haha, just joking, it is because my Princess knows Anthony! I left with no choice, I tried to borrow from my friend, Li Jin. She agreed at once! Thanks a lot!

I went to fetch her at her hostel at around 3:45p.m.. Initially, I was not aware of the presence of my Princess when I saw her cousin, Rodney out! This was due to her new look! What a change! She had cut her hair. 她留了刘海! She looks like a doll. Frankly speaking, it is not bad, instead she looks cute!

I smiled and laughed when she got into the car! She kept asking me that was she looked weird? Haha, actually you don't need to ask me since you can do nothing. She told me that she just asked her barber to cut a 须须 style to her but her barber cut this style! Haha...

On our way to college, I asked her whether she had studied? She said yes she did. I guessed two chapters but she told me three chapters. If this was true, great job! I am pleased to hear that! When we arrived at college, I asked her that where should I leave her? She pointed Gate A to me. Well, I left them at Gate A. Before she left, I asked her to hold on so that I could look carefully her new appearance again. I laughed after looking and she boxed my left shoulder! I could feel the force exerted in the box but I didn't feel any pain, instead it was sweet! Actually last time, she wanted to beat me several times already but she couldn't do that since I was chatting with her via msn or sms during that time!

After that, she sms me to ask me whether she looked ugly? I replied her what I thought and she said her father is in the same opinion with me! Yo, see, how perfect match we are! 默契十足!

Here, I would like to thanks Li Jin a lot for lending me your car. I really appreciate it! Thank you so much!

Disappoinment

Walao, it was raining like cat and dog when I was on my way back from my grandpa's house! After finish bathing, I online instantly! I was happy that I saw my Princess online since I had never seen her online for quite a long time.

Nonetheless, I was shocked after seeing her personal message"你是令我最失望的人！！！". I didn't know what was happening! I didn't find my Princess as well because I thought it was better if I didn't disturb her and let her calm down by her own. In fact, if I found her, maybe I would be criticized as鸡婆! I just wanted her to think about her stuffs.

After a while, she found me! She said she had bad mood! Yep, I had already known it from your personal message, Princess! I asked her what happened but she refused to share with me! Fine, if you think that you can handle it by yourself, just go ahead! Actually, I think I know what was it even though you didn't tell me! If I am not mistaken, it was about your boyfriend! If this is true, then I really want to beat your boyfriend up since he has caused so many frustrations, disappointments and sadness to you! I really hate him for not loving you with all his might!

Suddenly, she asked me whether I would think that she is using me whenever she finds me for help! Of course not! I am happy and willing to help you! This is real and free of consent! In fact, if you didn't find me, I would be worried even more! She told me that she would think like that whenever she wants me to help her! 傻瓜, you are my Princess! It is my obligation to do that! Thus, you don't need to feel shy or guilty to call me for help! As long as you are having difficulty, I am always be there ready to assist you even it is late in the midnight!

Princess, even though you said that you wanted to forget the "thing" but I know that it is not easy as I am experienced! Thereupon, if you are stressful and depressed, just give me a call or perhaps sms! I will call you back and chat with you whole night until finishing the credit in my mobile phone!

Remember

This Wednesday, I was not going to college since my tutor's father just passed away, therefore I was staying at home. After I revised my Basic Taxation, I played PES 09.

Suddenly, my handphone rang, somebody sms me. I was shocked that it was from my Princess and she was asking me a Microeconomics question. This was strange as she had never asked me question or asked me for help in her academy albeit I had told her to do so. Okay, I would teach her as long as she wanted to learn.

It was around 12:05p.m..I grabbed my microeconomics book out from a box and searched for the answer. However, I was not sure about the accuracy of the answer because I had never come across the book for a year. So, I phoned Anthony immediately to discuss the answer with him as I didn't want to give a wrong answer to Princess.

After that, I phoned my Princess at once and told her the answer. I told her word by word. After that, she asked me another question but before that, she asked me that whether I was free? I replied her that I was free since I had no class that day. Actually, she wanted to call her friend for help but she couldn't contact her and thus she turned to me. Alright, I would help you with all I might as long as I knew that you were having difficulty! I wanted to go to her hostel to teach her since the phone bill was not cheap! Nonetheless, it was quite awkward for me to do this since there was someone else in her hostel and later, I had a date with my friend, CTH.

It was okay, I had a lot of credits in my mobile phone, so I could pay for the cost! As usual, our conversation was stopped after one and a half hour. Therefore, I called her again. Actually, she wanted to call me since she was the one asking me for help but I didn't think there was a need for her to call me since I knew that she just had little credit in the cell phone even though she said she had sufficient credit! In my point of view, it was better if I called her since I knew her well. She likes to chat with her friends. Thereupon, she could use that credit to call her friends or even called her boyfriend.

I almost teach her the whole assignment questions and this took us about three hours. You can imagine how much I had spent in our conversation but it was okay, I still could take it! Instead, I was happy that I could help my Princess out of trouble since I had done a great job in carrying out my obligation albeit the answers given were not 100% accurate!

Via our conversation, I could know that my Uncle was discharged from the hospital already and now he is resting at his home. Oh, thanks God, you really hear me! I asked my Princess to look after Uncle closely and don't let him smoke and drink again. She told me that her family had given last warning to him! Haha... Apart from that, I heard Princess coughed for quite a number of time. For your information, I felt guilty for not taking good care of my Princess. My heart pained whenever I heard her coughed! This was real! After that, I went to have the date with CTH but I still didn't have my lunch yet! It was so weird, I was not hungry throughout the colloquy. Maybe this is so called “有情饮水饱”!

Princess, keep up your work rate, I believe that you will be the one of the best and I hope Uncle will be back to his ordinary position soon!

Instinct

I didn't know why I had a strong instinct that Princess would need me today! I strongly believed that I would meet my Princess or even helped her today!

However, the truth was not what I expected! Today, my MIS tutor dismissed earlier again, so I could go back earlier. When I was home, I took out my handphone and I was fulled of disappointment, my cell phone off by its own again! For your information, this has never happened before. My mobile phone would off by its own if I accidentally knocked it or put it into my pocket recently! This might due to it was overheat! Fine, I will acquire a new one when I have sufficient money!

The most terrible thing was, I saw a new message after I turned on my phone! It was from my Princess! My Princess asked me to buy bus ticket for her because she was scared that the Bursary office would be closed since it was 4:30p.m.. However, it was 4:40p.m. when I saw this message. What should I do? Of course replied my Princess at once. I offered to fetch her to jetty since I was not able to carry out the duty! She declined since she bought the bus ticket already. Then I asked her to be careful all the way and reminded her that the exam time table had come out!

As I had expected, she still didn't know about the exam time table. She said she will check with her friend on Monday but I am not trusting her since she always forget this kind of thing. Thereupon, I will copy the time table on Monday then send it to her!

Nowadays, Princess will call me whenever she has problem! Nevertheless, she won't call me every time! At least, she remembers me in time of trouble! This is better than nothing! Maybe some of you may say that my Princess is "using" me but there are still a number of points of view! Just choose whatever way you want!

Seeking?

Yesterday, I chatted with my fellow classmates(Anthony, Johnson, Li Jin, Mr.X, Charline and 淫姐) after our MIS tutorial.

淫姐 and Charline asked me not to wait for my beloved Princess anymore. They suggested me to find a new one! Are you interested in my reply? I replied them "I'm waiting while seeking". Nonetheless, the problem is, am I seeking?

I know the answer! If you want to know, just investigate it by yourself! How can I seek for a new one? I'm not interested in others! I'm even not accepted by one of my gay friends! He said I'm not the type that he wants! Haha, so mortifying!

I don't know why I'm so weak in this matter! Once I fall in love with someone, I can't forget her, I think, it is for the whole life! It may be due to I'm always serious in this stuff! I usually will consider and observe for a long time before I take action! Thus, this is one of my weaknesses! This was truly highlighted in the case which I fell in love with a girl in my primary school. I could love her even though she didn't know me while I just had little of her details! If you are my blog's follower, you may notice that I could only let her go after I met my Princess! Therefore, it is extremely difficult for me to let go of my beloved one! I hate myself in this matter! This is so-called faithful or stupid?

Blessing

After having my lunch, I met Princess at S.O.T. block. She was sitting on the stone bench waiting for the bus! I approached her just wanted to say hi to her but when our conversation started, I couldn't stop!

She invited me to sit beside her. So I sit beside her instead of standing in front of her! We chatted a lot. From her facial expression, I noticed something but I didn't know what was it? I asked her what was going on but she replied me "nothing"! I told her that if she had problems, she better told me because if she concealed it, I would be rather worried!

At last, she told me that her father is in the hospital now. She said her father is having 肺炎, is this referred to tuberculosis? I assume it to be right! She said her father was discharged from the General Hospital and now he is moving into a private hospital since her father was still not getting well in General Hospital! I told her my experience in General Hospital and asked her that how old is her father now? She said 60. Wow, I had never thought of the age of father would be so far from us! However, it is okay! I know that her father is a smoker. She said her father smokes, drinks and "disobey"! These were the reasons to get tuberculosis! I asked her to stop her father from smoking anymore and taught her that if her father would like to smoke again, or addicted to be more precise, give him a sweet to chew to forget the addiction.

Since she was alone, I chatted with her until she got into the college bus even though my friends were waiting for me to complete the English presentation's slides. Sorry, my friends! For your information, Princess is more important! I didn't know why suddenly I asked her that is she facing financial problem as I'm not rich! My whole property just has RM10000 over, how can I help her? Nevertheless, never mind, I will help with all I can!

Before she left, I asked her to take care and be careful as well as the most important one, that was to call me when she has problems!

After she got into the bus, I started to worry! I'm worried about her father's(actually, I want to call him "father" but before I get the recognition from Princess and her parents, I will just call him "Uncle") health. I will pray for you besides my Princess, Uncle! You have to get well soon so that my Princess is not worried about you! Therefore, for your own good and people who care about you including me, please get well as soon as possible! You know? I'm eager to visit you in the hospital but I'm ceased by a few reasons. Firstly, I don't know where is the hospital. Secondly, what status should I use to visit you? Thirdly, you don't recognise me! Thus, very sorry for can't visit you!

Oh my God, could you please bless my Uncle? Please, I don't intend to command you but this is a MUST!

星座

昨晚，我从报章中读到关于我的星座的东西，所以就把他写出来跟大家分享：

摩羯座，也就是我的星座在“敢爱不敢说的星座男”里竟是排名榜首的！它说：“保守的摩羯男在爱情面前总显现出几分羞涩。别说让他向女生表白，就算让他跟女孩说几句话，他都有可能脸红！他很内向，所以很不擅长表达自己内心的情感，尤其是在自己喜欢的女孩面前更是害羞。对方称赞他几句，恐怕他连看对方的勇气都会失去，说话也会吞吞吐吐。而且摩羯男又爱面子，如果自己的表白遭到对方拒绝，那对他的打击肯定不小。所以，他宁可用逃避和无所谓的态度去面对自己喜欢的人。”

看到了没有？我就是这样的人！我是100%的纯摩羯男！我不是空头说白话的，因为以前，我就是这样羞涩，才致使我到如今还是单身！读了这篇文章后，我发现原来我已经变了！因为，以前的我，根本甭想我去告白，因为我怕失败，一旦失败了就会很没面子！因此，我不懂为何我会向Princess告白的！大概是我吃错药吧！或许，我终于嘹解机会是得自己争取的吧！

虽然我被Princess拒绝了，感觉就像被打入十八层地狱般，但最终，我还是站起来了！我的小学同学都说:"Hey Recca,我不相信blog里的人是你!"。别说你们不信啦，就连我本身都不相信我会这么勇敢去告白，而且还一连告了三次白！哈哈，真讽刺！

No Feel

Just now, I dated my primary school's friend. We went to watch "Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince" at GSC, Gurney.

Before that, some of my friends wished me good luck and looked forward to calling her "Ah Sou". Haha, unfortunately, I couldn't make it, sorry for disappointing you! I had tried before but I truly couldn't make it!

When we were in the cinema, I was still thinking and missing my Princess! I wondered how beautiful the scene would be if the one sitting beside me was my beloved Princess! I know that she is having a boyfriend right now but I still love her! However, I will love her in a wisely manner now.

I was not happy on the ending since Professor Dumbledore died in the end of the show! He was killed by Snape whom he was strongly believing and relying on! After the movie, we went for dinner and during that time, she was inviting her friends to join our dinner! Fine, it was okay to me. After the dinner, we walked around and I met Si En. I thought, she would misunderstand something!

I had no other feelings throughout the night. I know that I still fall in love with Princess! Is the God playing a fool with me?

Endless

Today, I went to Redbox with my friends after the lecture. This was my third time been there. It was quite fun over there and this was also the first time which I sang the most! I still remembered that last two Friday, I suddenly asked Anthony to call Li Xian out to Redbox on our way to jetty as we passed through PTPL College. Then, Princess asked me that whether I know how to sing? I replied, "If I am good in singing, I has joint the Malaysian Singing Talent Competition already. Being a singer is better than being an accountant!" She smiled.

I have never failed to miss my Princess whenever I was in Redbox. There was no exception for this time! I also didn't know why I would miss my Princess over there. It might be due to the lyrics. I missed her again but just for a short while, about 1 minute!

Why I will miss her? I just know that I want to listen to her voice and even see her right now! However, I can't make it! I miss her so much now! I will keep reminding myself and telling myself that Princess has a boyfriend whom she loves so much already, please stop missing her again! I really do it but it seems like it doesn't work right now!

I know that I still love her, I even love her more than loving myself! She is the most important to me and I am willing to do anything for her! There was a time that I successfully concealed my love towards her and I truly felt nothing about her stuffs. It just liked I concealed it in a crystal ball. Nonetheless, the crystal ball seems to have leakage and my feeling and love towards my Princess gradually come out without pausing to a halt!

I almost watch “溏心风暴” everyday. I found that Princess and I look alike with 常在心 and 得得地. She forgives her boyfriend again and again, loves him wholeheartedly and treating him as her most important whereas I am the one who sacrifice, upset and contribute secretly. However, the relationship between them is better than ours. At least, she will remember him in time of trouble!

I don't bother that what am I feeling! I just care about my Princess's feeling! I will satisfy and relief as long as Princess meets the three requirements-- 平安，幸福，快乐.

So Bad

It was so bad. I received my Management Accounting Fundamental's test paper this afternoon. I was shocked that I just managed to get 35 marks out of 50! "Incredible"! What was ridiculous was, I scored full marks for subjective questions but I had 6 wrongs in objective questions!

It might be I overlooked the paper or overestimated my capacity or I am blurred in this subject! I admit that I was negligent in doing some of the questions. Nonetheless, 2.5 marks for each objective question had killed me! No choice, I have to start from zero. There is no time to be wasted as the final exam is approaching! May God bless me? I hope so...

Durian

As usual, I visited my grandpa today. As usual again, he urged me to eat his durians again! Haiz... No choice, I had to follow as well since he would take some durians for me and open them even though I had indicate my refusal or asked him not to take them to me. I didn't mean to hurt him but this few years, I had no the "passion" to eat durians. In fact, I didn't dislike to eat as well. Just... I also don't know how to explain, just no mood to enjoy!

Grandpa told me that he started to eat his durians since last week. Actually, he could enjoy his durians long time ago but he was scared that eating durians would "burden" his disgestive system which would further affect his health! That was one of the reasons why I always follow his instruction to eat his durians. I just eat on behalf of him! Haha... This is because he enjoy seeing me eating his durians! Yep, this is real! If I praise his self-plant durians or eat with satisfactory, he will be happy!

It is okay, no matter how many durians you bring to me, I will consume them as long as they are delicious!

Shock

This afternoon, I received an sms from Princess after having my lunch. She asked me that whether I was free? She was at jetty and couldn't find a bus to college! I decided to fetch Princess even though I was having a lecture class.

Before I started my car's engine, I called my Princess. She said she was in a bus already but she didn't know where would the bus head! Oh my God! So brave! She said it might stop at Gurney so I decided to wait her at Gurney Plaza.

When I arrived at Gurney Plaza's bus stop, I called her again. She said the bus would stop at KOMTAR, so I asked her to wait me at KOMTAR. I headed to KOMTAR as fast as possible. The road was jammed like shit! When I arrived at KOMTAR, it was already two o'clock but Princess would be having a class at 2:30p.m.. She said that she would wait for me in front of Maybank. When I arrived, I called her. I saw her eating a cup of ice-cream and she seemed didn't know that I had arrived. I waived my hand and she found me. Finally, she got into my car!

We chatted a lot of things on the way to college. I knew that she was still not recovered and not having her lunch yet. So, I offered to have lunch with her. She rejected as she didn't want to delay my time for class. Besides, I blamed that she shoudn't get back and come to Penang singlehandedly as this is very dangerous but she told me that she used to be the black tie in tae-kwan-do. When we almost arrived at her hostel, I said I would like to buy her medicine at Guardian. She rejected and kept saying that she had medicine in her house. Then I offered to have lunch with her and she agreed. We were eating Asam Laksa at Chew City Cafe at 2:30p.m.. She managed to eat a big bowl of Asam Laksa while I just ate a small bowl one as I had already had my lunch. After finishing our Asam Laksa, she wanted to pay for me but I blocked her way and paid to the "tauke". Luckily, the "tauke" took the RM50 note from me. A guy behind us smiled when seeing I kept blocking Princess's hand to pay.

Then, I fetched her back to college and she changed her shirt into a black one. I teased her that she wanted to have couple wear with me! When we arrived at college, it was already 3 o'clock! She was late. I followed her to her class and went to my class after ensuring that she had entered into her class.

My MIS tutorial ended one hour earlier and thus, I could fetch my Princess and her cousin to jetty earlier. When I arrived at her hostel, I called her. She got down after 5 minutes. We chatted a lot along the way to jetty and I knew her cousin's name is Chee Weng or Chin Weng. When we reached at jetty, I asked her to take good care of herself and be careful all the way!

I know that my feeling will gradually come back and I believed that there will be a sad time again. However, it is okay la! As a friend, I should help her. As a servant of my Princess, I must help her!In fact, I am happy that I could help her. I am also delighted that Princess found me in time of trouble even if I was not the first one whom she called for help!

Anniversary

Yoyo, today is the first anniversary for my blog, which means that my blog has been one year old! During this first year, thanks everybody for reading my blog and leaving comments.

Nonetheless, I would like to apologize for not updating my blog frequently. I promise that I will write a new post whenever I have an idea or incident happening. I also believe that some of my readers might feel bored for reading Princess's story. Haha, I think Princess's story won't appear in my blog so frequently anymore unless "something" happens! If you are my follower, you will notice that I will use pink text colour for Princess's story, and others just according to my mood during that time.

Hehe, so now is the first anniversary, and I believe that there are many many more anniversaries to come. Let's look forward to it!

Are You Okay?

Just now, I online. What shocked me immediately was I saw my Princess's personal message. She wrote "i'm SICK!!!!!". I couldn't stop myself, I clicked to chat with her at once even if she stated herself as away! I was so worried about her! My blood pressure went up and my palms became cold!

After 5 minutes, she replied me. She said that she is sick but she didn't consult a doctor. She just ate some medicines. She said that her disease is not so serious. Then, I asked her to take good care of herself. After a while, she said that she had bad mood and almost cried.

This worried me even more. She told me that she had some bad news relating to herself. I asked her to share with me as I am a good listener. Furthermore, she is my Princess, I need to help her out of trouble! However, she didn't tell me what was happening, she just said that she would tell me next time since she was not sure about the accuracy of the bad news yet! I could do nothing, I just asked her to cheer up and I told her that I just want her to be happy. I reminded her again that she can share whatever things with me. She kept thanking for my concern. Actually, you don't have to thank me since you are my Princess!

Nevertheless, what happened to her now? I started to worry! In fact, her silence even worries me more! Is the news related to her boyfriend, her disease or others? No matter what kind of bad news is, I am always be there to face it or even overcome it with you, Princess. You are not alone!

Still Okay

Last night, I received an sms from my Princess. I was glad about that even though it was just a forwarded message because this showed that Princess still considers me as her friend. For your information, I am scared of losing this friend.

Yesterday, I online. I clearly noticed that Princess was online as well during that time. She stated herself as busy, so I didn't disturb her and in fact, I had nothing to chat with her also. Just for a while, I found that she offline already. Then at night, I saw her online again but also just for a while, she disconnected. "Are these just a coincidence?" I asked myself! Since that, I prescribed that Princess was scared of my disturbance, she was trying to avoid me! Actually, you don't have to avoid me, I will disappear in your world. I won't annoy you anymore, Princess. Luckily I received her sms last night, then I eliminated my prescription! At least, she still knows me.

Last Thursday was a nightmare, I pounced the toilet doors for at least two times that day until I got bruise on my fist! After that, I gradually felt better! I tried my best not to miss her and forced myself not to find her and pretended nothing happen. I dissuaded myself not to care about her stuffs as well. I did it. That's why I am okay right now. I admit that sometimes, I would miss her accidentally but I managed to "pull" myself out of the dream!

The life without Princess is very lame! Bored life! Nevertheless, I can do anything I wish to do! I don't need to sustain my image, behave in gentleman manner and so on. I get my freedom back. I can tease many girls and even play with them. However, after the playing time, bored again! Thereupon, now is my time to focus on my study. I find that I am out of the track, I am behind the time! So, now is the time for me to chase the lost time back! Hopefully I can do it!

醒吧！

昨晚，我吃得很少，因为没有胃口，食物也乏味，世界是一片黑白的！我大概只睡了三个钟吧，就忍不住起床来写blog了。

辗转难眠了一整夜，心里是多么的空虚！以前，我做每一件事情，总是会以Princess为出发点，以她的利益为先，可以说是精心为她而设计的！现在，我不必再这么做了（虽然我很想），因为这份苦差，应该是属于她的boyfriend的！

为了Princess，我不惜牺牲睡眠时间，休息时间，心血，精神，学业。。。。。。但是，结果是怎样，我想大家应该也猜得到吧！值得吗？我不清楚，我只是知道这种东西是没得衡量的，是我自己心甘情愿的。当然，如果Princess点头的话，肯定是一笔再好不过的划算啦！

纵使我在听了Princess对她的boyfriend的感觉之后，我不赞成他们继续来往，不过既然这是她的选择，我只好尊重她，支持她！其实，我是正在“晒”大方，还是要让她得到教训，吃苦呢？我想两者应该都不是吧！一直以来，我从不敢做出伤害Princess的事，因为就像以前的posts所写的，我只要Princess快乐。只要她开心，我什么都ok的。因此，我之前所做的每一件事，为的只是要博红颜一笑！

昨晚，我给了我自己致命的一击！我不小心把我Multiply account里Princess的album给delete了!我把delete看成是edit!而且，我MP4里的照片都无法打开，真是祸不单行！这样一来，我连我们唯一的两张合照都没有了！我这次真是一无所有了！

现在，有两条路给我选--1）放弃。2）等！。要我放弃，我又放不下，我很舍不得！要我等，又浪费我的时间，届时只有吃干醋的份！所以，我应该选择哪条路呢？很矛盾！我记得大概是星期日的报章吧，有一篇很有意思的文章！“美国有一个德高望重的和尚，作者很荣幸，能够与他会谈。作者跟他聊起伤心事。和尚就叫作者拿着一桶水并把它举高，以这样的姿势继续与他交谈。过了几分钟，作者便觉得手酸了，于是下意识地把手放下。可是，和尚又叫他把手举高。又过了几分钟，作者忍无可忍了，和尚这时才叫他放下手。和尚说，手酸时，为什么你会放下手；但堆积在你心里的问题，烦恼等，为何又无法放下呢？”

我现在唯一能做的，就是祝福她与暗地里帮她。我不会再骚扰她，因为我不想留下坏印象，更不想拆散人家的姻缘，同时我也担心这样反而更让我放不下！很痛苦，泪不停地在心里流！就好比洪泉般的，一发不可收拾！更痛苦的是，我得在别人面前装作一副若无其事的样子！

现在，我终于明白为什么Princess总是不能答应我替她庆生的约会了。无所谓啦，我了解的！原本不惜血本，打算花费接近RM300的生日节目，现在已经化为乌有了！奇怪，可以省下一笔对我来说是不小的数目，我理应感到开心的呀！可是，事实并非如此！以前，我总会幻想或憧憬我跟Princess的美好时光，再从那里开始计划我们的未来。现在，看来都不必要了！哈林庾澄庆说得对，“计划赶不及变化”！

我需要时间。我需要时间来重新适应！没有Princess的日子，生活是如此的单调乏味，心灵也很空虚！可能，我应该回到自闭的状态，然后在那里找回我自己吧！

既然你已做出了选择，我只好接受。我只有三个要求：健康，快乐，幸福。只要你办到这三点，我会衷心地祝福妳！我不会再在第一时间出手帮你，因为这应该是你的boyfriend作的，我只会在最后一分钟才出手，届时希望不会太迟吧！我不会再出现在你的生活里，我会消失！最后，祝妳幸福，好运！

END

I think, it's the time to come to an end now or it's time for me to relief myself!

Just now, I on my Friendster account. As usual, I viewed my Princess's account. I noticed that she had created a new account. I added her in her new account. However, I also found a few newly created albums in her old account.

I was delighted that I could see my Princess's parents in her new album. However, I am sad to see one of the new album, namely Mr.公, I thought it should be "Mr.Husband". I clicked to view the pictures inside. I felt breathless since I saw Princess stuck her face to the boy! I couldn't take it! I felt helpless!

Then, I saw Princess online. I immediately chatted with her. I congratulated her for having a boyfriend already! She replied me "yup, got liao"! So, this was no more my prediction, it's a truth! My Princess is real for this time, she is having a boyfriend already! Her current boyfriend is her ex-boyfriend.

She said she always argues with him, she also doesn't know how long will they last! I acted as middle-man to persuade my Princess. I wish they can last long! Stupid, isn't it? But I really did it!

She said one time, her boyfriend hanged out with his ex-girlfriend but he told my Princess that he was sleeping during that time! My Princess was very angry upon this and I even can feel that my Princess is angry at him until now. She said she can't trust him! Then I persuaded her that her boyfriend might be don't want to let her misunderstanding him! I also asked my Princess to forgive him if this was the first time! Haiz, stupid Recca again! Maybe Princess's happiness is my aim or objective to 发奋 all the time!

So, Princess had forgiven him already but she still feels that she can't trust him and even hate him. Then I asked what is the purpose to recover with him. She answered me that maybe she can't forget him! If this is the reason, then you shouldn't regret, Princess! In the end of our conversation, I 祝福 my Princess!

I don't know what am I doing! I already feel extremely dull and moodless but I still want to act as middle-man to solve her problems! What happened to me? I am crazy! After that, I chatted with my Tai Tailo, he convinced me. Thanks a lot, Tai Tailo. I felt better after chatting with you.

So, I have to accept it now. There is no point for me to keep sticking myself or my life to Princess. I wish her all the best! 虽然我老早前就做足心理准备，但是为何我还会这么放不下？舍不得？舍不得也得舍得！这是事实，我得接受！好像“奖门人”曾志伟所说的，舍得，就是要“舍”才会“得”！但是，说得易，做又会如何呢？

从今以后，我不会主动致电给她，sms她，从msn找她。我会试着放下，忘记她！祝福我吧！希望我能尽早办到！希望痛苦难捱的日记尽快成为过去式吧！Princess, 我衷心地祝福妳! You are still my Princess. This title will not be entitled to anyone else in the future because it belongs to you! No one can get this title from me! I won't disturb you anymore. I will keep the cheerful memories in my mind and thanks for giving those memories. Call me whenever you have problem! I will help you. You can call me to share your things as well no matter they are sad things or happy things. Try to share with me as I am a good listener!

Lastly, I wish you all the best and good luck! Don't forget to take good care of yourself and be careful all the time!


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孤军作战

This morning, I lo and behold invited Anthony and Soo Chin to go to Lab with me because I wanted to check the name list of repeat student! Unfortunately, I found my Princess's name over there! Sucks!!! "Impossible" was the first thing that came to my mind!

I had never thought of the necessity to repeat her course to happen! It was almost impossible! I even still can't accept this truth until now! Impossible what! She just failed 3 subjects. Maybe she couldn't obtain at least 2.0 for her CGPA. Haiz...

After I knew this news, many things came across my mind. I met Chun Kuan in DKB during my Business Law lecture. He is also a repeat student, therefore I asked him something about the repeat course. He let me saw his time table as well. He said, college offered him to take 3 subjects during this semester, but he is not attending lecture or tutorial with the freshmen, instead, college organised a special class for them. That means, my Princess is also there. Yup, he saw her in his class too. He said that he saw my Princess in Microeconomics class but this couldn't be since Princess had passed this subject, the subjects that she still fails are Macroeconomics, Principles of Finance and Organisation and Human Resource. He argued with me and said that my Princess is bluffing me. However, I don't believe him, instead, I strongly believe my Princess. For your information, nothing is more important than my Princess!

Actually, I should know this news earlier as I found something weird via my conversation with Princess. So stupid! Why I didn't discover or observe this! Stupid fool, Recca! Princess should be frank and candid to me, she doesn't need to conceal it! You think that I will laugh at you? Or you think that I will despise you? Impossible, Princess! If I despise you in contempt, I am no longer the Recca Loh who loves you so much!

If Princess successfully pass all the repeated subjects within this semester, I may be no longer seen my beloved Princess in college anymore. This is because she wouldn't have to come to college in the next 2 semesters since she has to follow the schedule of freshmen of this year. Thereupon, she has to wait or perhaps doing a part-time job during these two semesters until next year! Then, my plan to celebrate her nineteenth birthday or the second date which I had planned will no longer be held!

Then, I won't have the opportunity to attend the convocation ceremony with her! I have to pursue my study alone! I have to face the challenges singlehandedly! Doing all the things by myself! However, Princess, you are not alone. If you can feel it, you will find that my heart is with you. My concern is with you too. So, you are not alone!

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I just finish chatting with my Princess via msn. Many questions and worries had been solved!

Do you know the feeling after failing to chat with my Princess for 2 weeks? I also don't know how to describe it! I just know that I am relaxing and exciting now! Furthermore, I knew that Princess lied me, I clearly remembered that she told me that she just failed Business Statistics in semester 1, but now I know that she has 5 failed subjects--Microeconomics, Macroeconomics, Business Information Technology and Application, Principles of Finance, and Organisation and Human Resource. However, I am not angry at her, instead, I am happy since she is candid to me! Thanks, Princess.

Last week, I heard a scary news from 铭仔. He told me that his housemate who is very close to my Princess told him that my Princess has a boyfriend already. Wa, the sky seemed gloomy after I heard this news and my blood pressure increased even though I have already been ready for this（心理准备）! But Princess stressed again that she used to have but she is temporarily single now!

Besides, I offer a date to my Princess on her birthday {S2(a)CA} but I am worried that her friends may be coming to Penang from Bukit Mertajam to celebrate birthday with her. She also told me that her friends would come without informing her, they want to give her a surprise, therefore, she can't accept my offer! Then, I change the day of the date, which is the day before her birthday {counter offer--Hyde v Wrench}! She temporarily accept {S2(b)CA} but I know that there are still variables to change! At least, I get her acceptance now! The communication of proposal and acceptance are completed {S4(1)CA} and {S4(2)(b)} respectively! ( Sorry for writing the law sections in this passage as I am going to read this soon)

So, she will take 2 subjects for this semester, 1 subject for next semester and 2 subjects for the third semester. However, she will take the resit paper for Principles of Finance in this semester. Good luck to you, Princess! If you have problems or difficulties on these subjects, please feel free to ask or call me! Don't forget, you are not alone!

Happy or Sad?

Should I happy or sad?

This afternoon, we found Ms.Karamjit to ask something about our assignment after our Management Accounting of Fundamental's tutorial ended. Therefore, we headed to S.O.T. block at around 3:10p.m..

What shocked me was I found my Princess at the downstairs of S.O.T. block! She was wearing a pink shirt, haha, it was not a couple wear with me again since I don't have a pink shirt. She was chatting happily with her friend who I didn't sure that whether she is same age with us or not! As usual, her cousin was standing and waiting at the side. This was my first time to see her cousin!

I slowed down my footsteps with the intention to attract my Princess's attention, somehow, she couldn't see me even though I looked directly at her when I passed in front of her! She smiled, laughed and chatted with her friend without being aware of what was going on around there!

For the nonce, I know she is happy and gets new friends! However, why she didn't look at me? She didn't notice me or she purposely didn't want to look at me? Princess, even a wink or a smile will make me feel better but...Arr...

Contradictory

Haiz, the "uncureable" disease intrudes me again! I am fed up!

I have not chatted with my Princess for 2 weeks already! Thus, I don't know what happened to her recently and I start to think negatively! Thing becomes worse especially I can't meet her in class! These two weeks, I found most of her friends or her gang particularly joint my MIS lecture but I couldn't find her! So, where was she?

Then, I start to worry! Does she need to repeat her course as she failed to obtain at least 2.0 for her CGPA? Or, she changes her course? Or, she has quarreled with her gang? One thing weird is I even can't see her cousin! Therefore, what happens to them?

Yes, I said to Princess and my friends before that I am happy as long as Princess is happy! However, this doesn't happen now! Sorry Princess, I really can't make it! If I know your recent news, I believe that I can make it but now the truth is the opposite! I can't hear anything from you!

Please don't forget, I'm still waiting for you! My phone is still on 24-hour for you! Please don't hesitate to call me whenever you have problem or even when you want to find someone to chat!

I want to call my Princess but I don't want to disturb her! So contradicting! What should I do now? Princess, are you okay?

R.I.P.

Last night, I received a call from Marcus at 11:04p.m.. I was sleeping during that time but I still woke up to answer the call. I guess you all know why I did so. Yup, it was because I was worried that the call was from my Princess or others for emergency purpose.

Marcus told me that our friend--洪志腾had just passed away. Oh my condolence! When Marcus told me this, I couldn't figure out who the fellow was! He said he was from Drama Society in Chung Ling High School! However, I still couldn't remember him! Marcus didn't know why he would die so suddenly, he just told me that 志腾 was very weak and usually had diseases with him all the time. He might probably die due to his illnesses! Then, I asked Marcus that would he attend 志腾's funeral because I would like to join. However, Marcus still didn't know where his funeral would be held!

After ending the call, I cleared my mind. I suddenly came across an image! Yes, it was him! I knew who was 志腾 already! He was a former CLHS student, that meant he was my senior! I first saw him at the basketball court in CLHS. He was lying lazily on the ground during that time and I noticed he had a bandage at his neck! I could see him since Tan Keh Ee was inviting and persuading me to join his drama group. I still remember that I was in F4 during that time!

He was a fat guy. We all very respect him and we gave a funny nickname to him--T.C.Boy. This was because he looked similar to T.C.Boy when he wore a cap and raised his thumb! He could be said to be my friend as well as my coach or teacher! I still remembered that I agreed to join TKE's drama group, that meant I been an actor under TKE and participated the drama competition--“享受舞台ing”. Our drama's title was “哈啰”!

He was the teacher advisor of Drama Society. Nevertheless, he was very closed to the members, including a non-member like me! I am very glad to know him! He was awesome as I often saw him to give advices and teach acting skills and even alter the script whenever we were practising. He taught me lots of things as well. Finally, we won the first prize! He was so dedicated even though he had to work!

According to Marcus, he was a special guy. He was born at 阴年，阴月，阴日，阴时! For your information, this kind of people is very seldom to be met! In the other words, they have the ability to communicate with the "friends" from 灵界! It is true! I don't bluff you all! I still remembered that Marcus had told me once. He said one day, 志腾 and they went to Gurney Plazza, 志腾 and Marcus, both also had 阴阳眼, saw many "friends" over there, especially at the game side. One of the "friends" followed 志腾 back by sitting at the back of his car. He didn't scare and tell anyone, he started to negotiate with the "friend" only after finish fetching them back to their respective houses! Marcus also told me that sometimes, he would talk to himself（自言自语） but this was not the truth, in fact, he was talking to "friends"! Besides, the "friends" can attach to his body（上身）easily! Therefore, many "friends" asked him to do something for them.

May be because of this unique ability, his body became weak since he was born and fortune teller said that this kind of people wouldn't stay long. Now, he is leaving at the age of 30s. Yes, it is a regret and unfair for the God to bring him back. However, it might be he had finished his duty in the real world and now is the time for him to live peacefully with the God on heaven! This was what I told myself as well when Beatrice Xu passed away in 2007.

I wish you living peacefully and happily on heaven. Thanks for your advices and I won't forget them. R.I.P..