昨晚，阿嫲拿了一堆文件给我，要我把阿公打枪埔的屋契找出来。我在寻找的过程中，发现了一封阿公写给我们的信，好像是遗书似的！
我阅读了那封信后，感到很惭愧！我觉得我很对不起我的阿公！原来，他对我们的期望是如此之高的！他的文法很好，甚至好过我。他要我们通晓三大语文，即华语，英语及马来文。同时，他还希望我们精通电脑。他认为，只有很好地掌握这几样，才能出人头地，在这个社会上有立足之地！
一直以来，我都很讨厌他！因为他的行为令我很反感！我还记得有一次，我叫他在我补完英文后到学校来载我。因为性格内向的我，不想跟陌生人在一块儿，所以我不要搭巴士，走路回又嫌路程太远！怎知，他因为校卫阻止他进入学校范围就打道回府，连支会我一声都没有。从那起，我就异常地不爽他，每次都对他大呼大叫的！
现在回想起来，我也蛮小心眼的，毕竟这件事也已发生三年了！真是兔崽子！我怎么可以这样呢？毕竟他是我的长辈！而且，在更早以前，他也是逢电必到啊！我记得，在我刚搬来宝石花园时，阿公几乎每个星期都会带我们孙子们去游泳。我们就忘我地玩水，而他就坐在一旁看我们玩！现在想起，不知他当时会不会寂寞？
如今，阿公老了，记忆力衰退了，好像得了老人痴呆症似的！我现在又能怎么帮他呢？
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Tuesday 1 September 2009
Again
Just now, I on my Friendster account. I accidentally clicked to open the account of my Princess's boyfriend. Okay, now I know that he is 22 years old, no wonder Princess told me that he is working. He is from Kedah!
I clicked to view his picture. I noticed that Princess is totally different when she is with him. Her smile is so attractive and “放”, unlike the one with me. This is what I lose to her boyfriend! He can make my Princess happy but he is also the one who hurts my Princess the most! I hate him!
I didn't know why, I felt helpless and breathless when I viewed the pictures! My Princess is so beautiful and sweet in the pictures! Maybe I jealous or envy him! Then I viewed his public picture. What made me so angry was he still put his ex-girlfriend's pictures. I didn't mean that he couldn't do that but please don't put those hugging ones! This would hurt my Princess!
Again, I felt energyless! I was re-falling in love with my Princess again before I saw those pictures! I felt that the difference or distance between my Princess and me was narrowed recently but I can do nothing after seeing those pictures. Maybe I was too childish!
I don't hope that there is a hole in front of my Princess! What do I mean the hole? Interested? Okay, I tell you now. One day, I told Anthony that I was not so 看好 the relationship between my Princess and her boyfriend since I knew that he would lie her or hurt her! I told him that I know there is a hole in front of my Princess and Princess has two choices. One is keep going and fall into the hole and the other one is stop from there and move backwards! What I look for is the latter one.
Since I am not Princess, I can't make the choice for her. In fact, if I have the capacity to do so, I won't do that as well! This is because I'm too loving her! I don't want her regret later! Thereupon, I give her freedom to make her own choice. What can I do? I think many of you may think that I will pull her back when she is going to fall into the hole! No, I won't but this doesn't mean that I won't bother her anymore or let her be hurt! No, this is not what I want and what I wish to do! What I can do is, jump into the hole and be with her in case she is falling into the hole!
Right now, I really can do nothing. This Saturday will be the first day of my exam, I hope that I can get 4 flat this time as I get A's in my coursework for all the subjects but I also know that it is not easy! However, I am having bad mood now! Can I continue my revision in this mood? Last time I couldn't but I think I can handle it now!
I clicked to view his picture. I noticed that Princess is totally different when she is with him. Her smile is so attractive and “放”, unlike the one with me. This is what I lose to her boyfriend! He can make my Princess happy but he is also the one who hurts my Princess the most! I hate him!
I didn't know why, I felt helpless and breathless when I viewed the pictures! My Princess is so beautiful and sweet in the pictures! Maybe I jealous or envy him! Then I viewed his public picture. What made me so angry was he still put his ex-girlfriend's pictures. I didn't mean that he couldn't do that but please don't put those hugging ones! This would hurt my Princess!
Again, I felt energyless! I was re-falling in love with my Princess again before I saw those pictures! I felt that the difference or distance between my Princess and me was narrowed recently but I can do nothing after seeing those pictures. Maybe I was too childish!
I don't hope that there is a hole in front of my Princess! What do I mean the hole? Interested? Okay, I tell you now. One day, I told Anthony that I was not so 看好 the relationship between my Princess and her boyfriend since I knew that he would lie her or hurt her! I told him that I know there is a hole in front of my Princess and Princess has two choices. One is keep going and fall into the hole and the other one is stop from there and move backwards! What I look for is the latter one.
Since I am not Princess, I can't make the choice for her. In fact, if I have the capacity to do so, I won't do that as well! This is because I'm too loving her! I don't want her regret later! Thereupon, I give her freedom to make her own choice. What can I do? I think many of you may think that I will pull her back when she is going to fall into the hole! No, I won't but this doesn't mean that I won't bother her anymore or let her be hurt! No, this is not what I want and what I wish to do! What I can do is, jump into the hole and be with her in case she is falling into the hole!
Right now, I really can do nothing. This Saturday will be the first day of my exam, I hope that I can get 4 flat this time as I get A's in my coursework for all the subjects but I also know that it is not easy! However, I am having bad mood now! Can I continue my revision in this mood? Last time I couldn't but I think I can handle it now!
一路顺风
Tomorrow, my buddy will depart to Canada to pursue his tertiary study! I'm here to wish him everything the best over there!
I will lose a good buddy upon his leaving! He is the one who always listens to my problems. He will give me a great number of good advices every time he knows my problems. Instead, he usually finds me and tells me everything he likes. Thus, we know each other very well since we often share our things!
He will call me out to gather or 饮茶 whenever he came back from Selangor. Now, this won't happen anymore since he will only be back after graduating! Four years... not too long nor too short! Many things will happen and change within these four years! I hope that we are still best friend when the time elapses!
Luckily, there is msn which can enable us to chit-chat albeit we are geographically separated! However, the different in time zone probably will obstruct us but I believe that the fifteen-hour in difference is not a problem! Haha...
Buddy, keep in touch ya! Please update your blog from time to time since I think, our blog will be the best way for us to communicate!
I will lose a good buddy upon his leaving! He is the one who always listens to my problems. He will give me a great number of good advices every time he knows my problems. Instead, he usually finds me and tells me everything he likes. Thus, we know each other very well since we often share our things!
He will call me out to gather or 饮茶 whenever he came back from Selangor. Now, this won't happen anymore since he will only be back after graduating! Four years... not too long nor too short! Many things will happen and change within these four years! I hope that we are still best friend when the time elapses!
Luckily, there is msn which can enable us to chit-chat albeit we are geographically separated! However, the different in time zone probably will obstruct us but I believe that the fifteen-hour in difference is not a problem! Haha...
Buddy, keep in touch ya! Please update your blog from time to time since I think, our blog will be the best way for us to communicate!
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