Stop

I have decided! I must stop dreaming!

For your information, I was too stubborn last time! I used to think of the reasons why I couldn't get together with my Princess. Even though I knew that this is 'unforceable', I couldn't persuade myself to forget. Thereupon, I usually feel suffered! After considering for few days, I noticed that I could avoid the suffers long time ago.

Do you know how to write an 'o' or a '0'? Last time, my condition was similar with writing a '0' or an 'o'. Don't understand? Okay, I explain now. When you write a word, it sure has its starting point and ending point. However, do you notice that these 2 words' starting point and ending point are the same? The starting point is the point where I start to think nonsense whereas the ending point is the point where I can dissuade myself temporarily. Therefore, it is extremely dangerous when I reach the ending point because I will be going back to the starting point and follow the cycle again if I am careless. Thus, it is a ceaseless process!

In order to avoid this silly thing from happening again, I decide to stop thinking, which means I will not stand on the starting point anymore. I am not a coward but if you think that I am, then it's up to you, I don't care! I strongly believe that I will be okay by not standing on the starting point.

Besides, I also need to blank my heart. Otherwise, new things will not have an opportunity to get in. Similar with what Princess said, the person who is not willing to change will not have improvement. I agree with her and this is what I am doing right now. I must change! I must look up! I must pay full attention on my study when I go to KL. Playing time is over and suffer time is gone, now is the time for me to get ready for new adventures.

Actually, I am damn disappointed when I knew that I was only her friend after those efforts. Nevertheless, it's okay. I will stop those unnecessary efforts as well as change for the better and even best! Come on...

Should I?

Haha, I don't intend to copy Anthony but I need this title to continue my blog. XD

Eventually, I said sorry to Princess just now. Why I delay this apology until today? This is because I couldn't find Princess these few days and I didn't want to sms her. Finally, she online today. I didn't know why? She said I am quite quiet recently because I was so talkative and had a lot of topics to chat last time. Actually, I don't think so. The only reason I can find is the change of role.

Last time, I was a chaser. I wanted to chase her, therefore I had to show my best and find any topic to chat with her just to make her happy as well as I didn't want to make the situation so awkward! That's why I used to tease her, talk nonsense, joke and so on.

Now, I have changed. No, my role has changed! I am no longer a chaser because I know that I won't succeed no matter how much effort I had paid. Now, I am just her friend. I may be her good friend, best friend, or just a normal friend, I don't know!

She said she will move to a new hostel because she is not happy with one of her existing housemates. She will move to a unit either on the 2nd floor or on the 10th floor of the new block, which was the block that Charline and L.H.Y. used to stay. Whatever it's, I wish you good luck.

She suddenly asked me when will I go KL? I replied her this Friday. She seemed so upset. Then I teased her that I will be back on this Saturday since I just go there to sign a contract, or perhaps buy a laptop. She blamed me for scaring her.

She dated me. She said we can meet before I go to KL. Then I troubled her. I asked her that doesn't she scare that someone will get angry? She said she can choose not to tell him. Erm, I don't know that whether I should happy or not? If she said like this last Thursday, I will be the happiest person in this world but... She said that we just meet, so there is no point to scare. Nevertheless, I still insist that a couple should be honest to one another. Thereupon, I don't hope she lies him.

Now, I have the problem. Should I meet her? I replied that we can be not meeting because I don't want to trouble her and this may cause them to quarrel. I don't want this to happen. Besides, she is not in Penang Island. I don't intend to trouble her waiting for bus and coming from that far just to meet me. However, she insisted. She said she would call me if she is in Penang Island.

Actually, I am scared of can't let go of her. I am scared that once I meet her, I can't forget her. I am worried about thinking, imagining or dreaming nonsense once again. I'm sure that I want to meet her but on the other hand, I am also worried of being hurt! Thus, should I?

Family Teoh 2

These 2 days, I was giving tuition in Teoh's family. With my new handphone, I grabbed the opportunity to snap a few photos.

This is Tiffany. Cute?

This was taken before the class started.

This is Justin.


We always 'cheers' during half way of tuition. This is to enable him to have a break and play something funny so that the environment is not too tensed.

See, he was doing his 'activity'-- sticker book. So... concentrate.


天真无邪，真是羡煞旁人。 好怀念这些日子。不知道为什么，看见她笑就很开心。

Before I went home, Justin's mother invited me to have lunch. Wow, see, I was so lucky, I was treated so well.

His mother told me that Justin loves to drink soup. He is 'soup king', hehe...

She asked me to add her in Facebook so that she can send their pictures to me when I am studying in Kuala Lumpur starting from next month. She also taught me how to cook a 'steamed' egg. Suddenly, she asked me to tell her if I can't get a job after my graduation because she feels that I have the ability, so she wants to ask his husband to hire me. In fact, his husband is requiring a professional accountant to handle his company's finance. She also told me that I was the second student who have the honour to have meal cooked by her. Hehe...

Really thank you so much. Your cooking was quite good but there is still a little improvement needed. You are a qualified wife. ^^