Initially, I was quite happy since I dreamed my Luckygirl for the second time. However, things went worse as the dream was going on. She was in trouble in my dream. Certainly, I stepped out to help her but I noticed that I couldn't help her much!
Actually, this was a weird dream. I didn't know why I could have this kind of dream. She was punished by a lecturer and I almost beat the lecturer up. This was a short dream and hence the story didn't interesting but what I want to mention here is I feel that I'm not the suitable guy to her. She doesn't need me.
In fact, in reality, she acts like that as well. So much ambiguous implies from her. Sometimes we are as close as good friend but sometimes we are as lose as a mere friend. I don't want this. What I want is a firm relationship, at least give me a guarantee, in Chinese we call “安全感”. I don't know why I can't have this feel. Of course, same as Princess's case, I don't want to force her. Maybe she will change her mind if she knows what I think and feel.
Up to this moment, I don't desire a fascinating and romantic relationship or love as I know, I can't afford to achieve this due to my poor financial management. I just want a 'puppy love' which doesn't cost us much. I won't demand for a date often or everyday. Of course, dating is inevitable but it won't be come out from my mouth during study week or when we are busy. To me, this is just a simple love. We can still take good care of our study. Hopefully she understands me.
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