Help?

Next week onwards, we will be facing two-week examinations, which are the harshest papers for Diploma courses! I hope we all can get through them with flying-colours and start our Advanced Diploma journey in the coming May in Kuala Lumpur!

However, why I can't remember the facts and things that I have memorised? It's so suck! Forget the things that you have memorised is equivalent to zero or nothing! Wasting my time! Anyone can help me? The answer is NO! I am the one who can help myself but the matter is, how can I handle it?

I feel that my brain is getting older and older! Last time, I used to have a power memory. Meaning that, I could memorise things in a short time and I could memorise quite a number of facts! Nonetheless, the power memory looks like saying goodbye to me already! It's so stress and frustrated that the Malaysian education system requires the students to memorise a lot of things in order to get high distinction!

The only way that I can do now is starting to study now!

Finally

Finally, it happens!

When I started to create a new Facebook account, I had anticipated this would happen one day and I couldn't forecast that it happens today!

I know that you are curious on what has happened. Okay, I tell you now. Princess added me as her friend just now. I approved already. As usual, I viewed her profile and picture. I had tried my best not to add her in Facebook since I created my account. This is because I don't want something like now to happen! I admit that I viewed her profile once but I still could force myself not to add her.

However, today, she added me. What can I do? Of course approved the offer! When I saw one picture, I felt helpless! That is neither a kissing picture nor taking with her boyfriend. There is a description stating "Future da shao...yip yip^^". Meaning that, the girl probably is her boyfriend's sister. I know that I can't lie myself now, I know whom I really love!

Recently, I truly had no mood. I don't know why but I guess, I know what is the reason now! This Christmas and New Year, I even didn't send a message to Princess, neither she was! I did that because I thought she would be better without my vexation but it meant others to me. It means she has forgotten me and I am not important to her! Even though I will feel sad whenever I receive her news, at least, I am experienced now! I know how to handle this kind of situation! Just sms me as this will make me feel better.

Her ignorance makes me feel that I am alone! I am terribly lonely! I always try to conceal the feeling inside my heart just like sealing them up in a bottle! Nonetheless, I think, it is broken now! I hate myself! I hate myself for not letting her go solely! Why I will miss the feeling even that is so hurt whenever I am bored!

Why this happens now? This is not a joke! Now is the time for me to fight for my future! This semester is not joking! This semester is the harshest semester in diploma years. The last semester is just a piece of cake if I can pass through this semester! Therefore, why this feeling strikes me now? The God is really playing a fool with me!

Actually, after the Business Investment Game, I felt that I had no any obligation to Princess. To get the champion in Business Investment Game was the last promise I had done to Princess and I am sure that you all know what was the result and this was the only thing that I failed to accomplish for my Princess! Nevertheless, I saw her personal message in Facebook was “反感”! What happened again?

Many of my friends, especially female ones are praising me as good, intelligent, tolerant, humorous, handsome and so on. However, they are "answerless" or speechless when I ask them the reasons why Princess doesn't love me since I am so perfect! Of course, I admit that I am not as perfect as they said! Maybe the reason is what we so-called "feeling"! She maybe don't have the feeling with me but with her boyfriend. I will only wish them the best if he can treat my Princess whole-heartedly just like me! I am left with no other options but just to bless them because he is the only one who can make my Princess happy!

I don't know whether it is true as what I guess and I don't like to frame people. Thus, the 反感 may be addressed to me for can't forget her. Anyway, God bless you.

Anniversary 2

Hello everyone, today is the anniversary of my first date with Princess.

When I was in my college, I recalled a lot of things! Of course, those were related to my Princess! I still remember the day! I still remember that day was Tuesday and I was having my Accounting lecture and Princess was in the same lecture hall with me but we sat separately! I still remember that day I was doing the "devil woman" work when I came back from college. I still remember that I noticed that my car's tyre was punctured! I still remember that there was a small rain on my way to fetch my Princess. I still remember that I borrowed car from aL to fetch Princess due to the rain. I still remember the time when I saw Princess got down from her hostel! I still remember that how hot was the weather when we were chatting and waiting outside the college auditorium. I still remember the time when I was having my first dinner with Princess and many others.

I know that the day was the happiest day I had ever passed through up to this moment. I believe that it is not so easy to amend it because so far, I still can't find my source of happiness besides Princess! Yes, this is true! I don't mean that I was not happy, just that the happiness doesn't able to reach the peak level! For example, I just came back from Red Box with my friends. However, I was not "high" or happy throughout the day. I am having bad mood today and I don't know the reason behind it. Even though I still smiled and playful in front of others but I know that actually I was not happy!

I also realise that I don't have much time left since the final exam is around the corner! Thereupon, I decide to start my revision tomorrow and this is a MUST! I don't want to give myself any reason just to forgive myself for not going according to my plan!

Happy Birthday and Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to all the followers! Other than Christmas Day, today is also my sister's birthday!

Before starting her birthday dinner, she took enough rest first. I purposely took her picture when she was sleeping, hiak hiak hiak... Yo, lazy pig... haha...

This is her birthday cake! Quite delicious, yammy... haha...

Thereupon, I guess you know how I spent my time today!

Christmas Eve

Today is Christmas Eve, it is supposed to be a joyful day but this is just a normal day to me!

Yesterday was Gail's birthday party and Bernard's Christmas Carol party. We attended all of them, just that we were late to Gail's party, sorry about that because we needed to help Bernard to set up and join his game!

In the Gail's party, Pei Pei was my partner or in the other words, she was my part-time girlfriend. Haha, why part-time? This is because she has boyfriend already and I don't have any feel on her. However, if there is any event I would invite her as my partner!

These are Gail and me! Don't look at my face since I was so "kiam pak" due to the expression! Maybe the flash light too bright! Haha...
These are Johnson, Anthony and me! Smile also not sincere! Haiz... I know I am not photogenic. Haha, bo huat!

Later, I believe that Princess will be going to Gurney Drive for the count-down with her friends as usual, so I rejected my friend's offer to go to gurney just to shop. Firstly, I am tired. Secondly, I dislike noise. Hopefully they all enjoy their activity and safe all the day.

保险之死缠烂打

刚刚，我的姨婆来我家，而且是带了我所谓那很讽刺的保险的妈妈来，她叫Eileen。她们来时，我正在冲凉。

她们两个“夹攻”我的阿嫲。她们正在游说我的阿嫲买Hong Leong的储蓄加人寿保险。我原本是不睬她们的，但是阿嫲突然叫我出去。我只好出去坐在椅子上，一面听她们的“催眠”，一面玩我的魔术方块！

重点来了，我看见Eileen拿一张保单契约出来了！她要我给她我的身份证，因为她要把我当成保单持有人及受益人，只是我的阿嫲和姨婆供那保单而已！我这就觉得很奇怪了，因为我的阿嫲竟然答应要签购那保单。

这时，我的表演时间到了。我当下拒绝缴交我的身份证！我用很委婉的方式叫我的阿嫲考虑清楚！这时，她们又夹攻我了！她们问我为何要再想清楚？我又不好意思说明一切，毕竟我的姨婆在嘛！可是，她们真是欺人太甚！丝毫不让我有喘气的空间。需知道，狗急就跳墙；把我搞得进退不能，我只好跟你撕破脸了！

她们一直说等供完六年后，阿嫲就可以拿这笔钱去旅行；万一阿嫲不幸途中逝世，我又可以继承那保险钱。。。。。。真好笑，你们不觉得你们的这番言论很讽刺吗？我毕竟也接触过你们的产品，而且近来，我也跟保险走得很近！这些只是你们用来哄客户的手法！我只好说我有私人理由！

但是，她们还是穷追不舍，死缠烂打地要我说理由，而且还侮辱我的爸爸和我！岂有此理，既然你那么不顾尊严，那我也不必跟你客气了！我对我的阿嫲说：“你的财产有多少，你我都心里有数，你能保证在这段期间，你不会用到钱吗？你要清楚，一旦你签了，那就必须供六年，而且是出多于入！你能吗？而且，你能保证你接下来每年都身体健康吗？”

这时，阿嫲开始动摇了！她们又“夹攻”我了！她们说我不想我的阿嫲在六年后去旅游吗？而且，六年而已，一眨眼就过了。况且，阿嫲身体又那么健康！收益人又是我，又不必我供，我怕什么？需要这么“奸鸡”吗？

这时我的火就来了！我对阿嫲说：“我不需要你的财产，你有钱就拿去享受，去旅行，去吃好料！”哇，这时，她们更厉害了！人生攻击了！姨婆说：“你的孙子不望你的财产，那为什么还要省吃俭用留一笔钱给他们？阿俊，你跟你的爸爸一样，太保守，追不上时代！而且，即使阿嫲过世了，我也区区需要每年一千多元供保单而已！如果一个大人在一年里连一千多元也储不到，那就等同废物！”

真是太岁头上动土！不知死活！我的忍让并不代表我懦弱，我无力招架！我只是尊重你们！正所谓：“人必自侮，然后人侮之”，既然如此，那我失礼了！我对她们说：“对，财产，我是不稀罕的，我会靠我的能力去赚！而且，我有我的一套，我未必一定要步你的后尘！”

姨婆还是说我不给身份证是因为我怕要我供，很老套，不开通。。。。。。如果说，我的阿嫲供了这份保单，会没钱医病，那她没有供保单时，又会有钱医病吗？难道我们身为子女及孙子的，可以袖手旁观，坐视不理吗？我们可以不帮忙缴清医药费吗？好，这时，我只好顺从她，我也懒得跟她多说，所谓“话不投机，半句多”和“秀才遇见兵，有理说不清”，而且我也觉得我不需要跟她多加解释，我不必这么低声下气地跟低贱的人说话！我就发挥我的演绎天分，我说：“对，你们说什么都对！我们很不孝的，我们不舍得出钱的！我们是那种不舍得或会心痛出钱的一群！”

可能我的演技太好了，她们听了个个都笑，忙说她不是这个意思。我当下不给她脸了，我马上说是，我们就是这样的，那又怎样？有时，当我们顺从她们时，她们就会得寸进尺，牵着我们进入她们的催眠里，但是我是谁？想要误导我？想要跟我辩论？开玩笑，麻烦你查一下我是谁先？用华语及福建话辩论可是我的强项呢？普罗天下可以赢我的真是寥寥可数！说真的，我还真是不曾遇过可以很有技巧地说赢我的人！

我就跟她说，总之我是不会签那保单的，如果我的阿嫲真的想要，那就等我的表哥旅行归来时，用我的表哥的名字！哇，她们还是不放过我！大声地说：“你真是不要你阿嫲的钱吗？保单只是写你的名字而已，很为难吗？如果写你表哥的名字，届时只有你的表哥可以拿钱，你们不会觉得你的阿嫲“大小心”吗？”

我就说：“我的表哥的身世，你又不是不知道，即使收益人是我的表哥，那又怎样？保费会有不同吗？我们只是相差一岁而已！给我的表哥，很过分吗？”Eileen投降似的点头说不过分！但是，我的姨婆还是不放过我，非要在今天close到case不可！唉，你才进来不到三十分钟就想close我的case，毕竟我也是保险界的一员，这么草草了事，谈何容易？

这时，阿嫲不想我们吵架，忙说她不要了！姨婆又对我的阿嫲说：“你收这么多钱干嘛？你的孙子又不稀罕，况且，你不想跟我去旅行吗？”阿嫲还是说不要了！姨婆又说，好，现在阿嫲有钱去旅行，但是她脚有关节炎，又这么去旅行呢？

哈哈，不错嘛！你都会说我的阿嫲有关节炎嘛，那又如何跟你去旅行呢？真是自打嘴巴！这时，她们就要离开了！但，出了门口嘴里还不停地碎碎念！一直说她只想跟我的阿嫲去旅行，同时，还帮我们这班孙子留财产！哈哈，真好笑！如果你不是会从中获利，为何会那么对签不到我们的case而耿耿于怀？为什么逼人太甚，否则我可以给你好下台！是你自找的！怨不得他人！

现时的保险业会遇到困境，全都是你们这些死缠烂打的保险代理员。既然如此，请你们“滚蛋”，请马上滚出保险界！

Hell

Yes, it's hell! Today, we failed to get champion!

Actually, I was quite confident to get champion after seeing our last rehearsal last night! Unfortunately, the "lagged" laptop made us pay for it! Shit!!! The slides were lagged even though I had tried to press a number of times on the air mouse! This in turn broke my ending!

I am not satisfied for ending this game as second runner-up! I think, we should be the champion but at least as a first runner-up! Hiaz, I don't want to talk much on that stupid laptop since this was over! I am sure that if the laptop was performing well, we at least would get the second place instead of third place.

Luckily Princess was not there, otherwise it would be a great disappointment! Sorry for all my supporters especially my Tailo, Melvern and my god sister! Sorry for presenting this lousy presentation and disappointing you! Anyway, thanks for your sacrifice on your nap just to accompany and support me! I promise that I will do better in the future! The best Recca is yet to come!

祝~安康

今天下午，我在C.A.里call我的Princess，因为我要确定她明天是否会来支持我？如果她有来，那她又是否需要我载送？很可惜，我call了四次，她也没接！

正当我们正在听Shian briefing时，Princess call我了。我问她明日是否on？可是，她说她明天需要陪她的妈妈去看医生！哇，发生了什么事？我很想问她，可是她说需要去忙了！我只好嘱咐她好好照顾她的妈妈，因为妈妈比较重要。我要她别把我们的约定放在心上，因为她说她会尽量赶来！

其实，倘若你要陪妈妈去看医生，我宁可你不来！因为我不想你太操劳，而且你的妈妈比我更需要你！如果可以的话，我更情愿放下这里的一切，马上飞过去陪你们！我不明白为什么？为什么当我听到这则消息后，我整个人，整个情绪顿时跌入最谷底！我变得无能为力，提不起精神来！

Come on！明天就要present了，别那样嘛！很抱歉，我办不到！对不起，我尽力了！我不知道是否是由于我失望Princess不能出席，还是我忧心她的妈妈呢？我想，应该是后者吧！不管怎样，我还是会尽我的全力去present，因为我们是很有机会得到冠军的！而且，我更加需要拿冠军来安抚Princess，好让她不自责！希望明天我的激情会回来吧！不然，台上的我只是外表激情而已，内心其实不是这样的！希望我的演技骗得过评审吧！

当然，我当下最希望的就是，我的Princess的妈妈可以安然无恙，早日康复吧！

Hell or Heaven

Hell or Heaven? What do I mean? Haha, I don't mean what in the Flame of Recca means! It means that there will be hell or heaven on this Friday!

For your information, this Friday will be the day for our final presentation of business game. I have invited quite a number of supporters such as my Princess, Tailo, Melvern, my god sister, her son... Those who are sure to come are my Princess and my Tailo. Thanks!

Haiz, I still think that our group's presentation is not up to my expectation, which means that we are not likely to win the first prize! If that is the case, I will disappoint my fans especially my Princess! Oh no!

However, we will do our best and I am sure that we can do it! What I hope is I can gain back the passion and enjoy the stage like my concert, then I am confident to beat Hock Kang who is the best presenter in the qualifying round!

Hell or Heaven? We shall see!

认识周年

今早八点半，我的手机响了。原来是我set的reminder！我恍然才知道，原来时间这么快，今天是我跟Princess的认识一周年！我真是的！连这么重要的日子也会忘记，幸亏有reminder！难道，我真是这么忙吗？是的，最近我真的比较忙，不过还游刃有余，只是没有时间温习功课而已。因此，再过两个星期的三个测验，我真是不知如何是好！惟有尽人事，听天命了！

回想起来，去年的今天，我还是那刚步入爱上人的阶段。我还记得当时我很害怕及紧张，毕竟那是我第一次主动approach异性！我清楚地记得当时我的手掌及脚板冰冷，可能是紧张吧！真没用，哈哈！当时跟Princess第一次接触时，心情真是战战兢兢！一来，怕吓坏她；二来，要顾形象；三来，不知道Princess是个怎么样的人？她又会不会接受我呢？哈哈。。。还好，Princess是我见过最随和的女生，也因此，我们很快地就一拍即合了！

今天，我没有跟谁说起，也没有跟谁庆祝，因为即使是庆祝，女主角不在也是没有意思的！不过不用紧，因为下个星期五就是我展现我的才华的日子。届时，我一定要力拼冠军。我要证明给全世界，特别是Princess看，我是行的！同时，我也要向看不起我的人呛声，“你说我不行，我偏偏行！”